Fear of Dying

Hi All

My name is James im a 33 yr old Male. I have been experiencing some un pleasant issues over the past 5 months and they took a turn for the worst over a couple of weeks.

I work in London, and my company sends me abroad a fair bit. My issue I am having started when
I came back from a long weekend away in Ireland back in October. (I have been on an Aero plane numerous times before). On the trip back from this weekend away. The plane had relatively bad turbulence which I didn't handle very well, but I put it down to a bad episode.

In February work sent me away to Munich. Coming back from that there was turbulence. Unlike the other passengers on the plane. I didn't handle it that great. However it wasn't as bad as the Ireland trip.

Last week I went out to Seattle. There was turbulence on the way there. however I did handle it quite well. The real problem was on the way back the flight was a good flight with no turbulence, However I was jet lagged a bit and I tried taking some nytol so I could sleep on the plane. My plane took off 8pm in the evening (Seattle time). I spent most of 8 and half hours commuting in torture, I was on edge. I was sitting on the left hand side of the plane. every little dip or wobble the plane had I was feeling it. Due to the jet lag I was gradually getting more and more tired. This had mean in a mode where I felt I was getting mild hallucinations. Every time I was nodding off. I kept having vision in my mind of the plane crashing this happened numerous times with different scenarios running through my head.

Want didn't help prior to flight is the missing Malaysian plane incident being advertised all over the media. I am due to go to Vegas in May and I am concerned about this.

The thing that has brought me to yourself is that I was at worked today and I am on the 5th floor. I looked out of the window across the skyline. and in London there are tall buildings. I was looking at the
building and then began to visualize myself falling of it backwards. Having the same sort feeling like I was coming back on the plane form Seattle. One of my colleagues looked at me and asked if I was alright as they said that I looked like I was about to faint.

Have I developed a fear of dying ? because this is not normal and if I don't do something about it now
it could get worse. please could you shed some light on the situation.

Many thanks