Back after a long absence

I've been a member for a while but have disappeared for several months due to craziness at home. Today has been one of those days where anxiety controlled me instead of me controlling the anxiety.

Thanks Scaredy Cat
For the most part, I have been doing well. I just finished a year of DBT and wished I could have unlimited time with it but can't. I think that is part of the trigger for such a set back this time. I never fully got rid of my anxiety but could manage it day to day. Today though I could go nowhere without such anxiety that I would get sick so I finally gave up and came home which then it came a battle to get inside my apt without getting so anxious. I felt like I had failed myself.
Another trigger is being off meds (I was stupid and thought I could do without them) and sleep schedule is messed up which is why I'm laying here at midnight writing this lol
Hopefully when I go back to work tomorrow I can handle it as I've been off for a week because of spring break. If that happens I will more likely be able to make it to the store to get my meds too and start weening back on. Right now hounded I'm going to try to sleep hoping this is not the start of a manic or mixed episode (I also have bipolar along with borderline personality disorder and social anxiety disorder)

S.C.
We'll sleep was a no go for tonight.. Gave up after 3 1/2 hours of laying down with no electronics or stimulation and with eyes shut resting but that's ok

I was surprised DBT helped so much my SH thoughts are down to a minimum! Even with such high anxiety today so I must've learned something

And yes I appreciate the support here as well! Thank you

LN