How long

I ask myself how long and how come was raised up in a christian church& a long the way I've picked up a few other things, meaning I've learn how to seek and ask but sometimes it feels like Iam talking to thin air. Like Iam walking alone you would think a child once born in a emergency, because mom and child was in danger would fear less but some where a higher power said no not to day danger you got to move. I know there is a power beyond measure the higher power no human can touch& that power is perfect beyond belief.
If only I could tap into that power with no fear are pain, are any regret I would ask that higher power how long? How long before fear exsist no more& doubt is removed from situations of uncertainty of wondering, the higher power that my grandmother taped into for years of her life& lived her life fearless& I saw it many times first hand. How long before I can have that same peace with no fear& except what is& learn to live without worry, for I've had enough worry and fear& I desire with every ounce of my being to relinquish it to a unknown universe &banish it from ever returning.
Anxiety(lies) Panic attacks (great fear) it has to go for there is no more room to lose& I've never desired this ,just something that came out of no where& became bigger.

Post Edited (SoulNHealing) : 3/28/2014 10:36:58 PM (GMT-6)

Soul,

The best answer I can give you is that we all have our crosses to bear.

We know that there is imperfection in the world, and therefore afflictions that we must face...

...we don't know what lesson or blessing there is behind the struggles that we endure. We can't see them now, but there is a purpose to everything that we go through.

Have faith that the answers that you seek will be made known to you.

You may even now be a blessing/example to someone through your life, with the way that you are enduring.

I see a strong faith in every word you write...

S.C.