Same 0l same 0l and this is getting old every night it is the same dam thing& I lam just sick of it, I don't know what to do I just want to be better like is that to much to ask for why the hell? Like why can I not shake this already fighting for what sainty I have left& just need a break through, I just need a real break through Iam driving myself crazy& this is ridiculous and when Iam on cycle anxiety is much worse& panic sit on a 20 Lord you said you wouldn't give me more then I can handle well Lord this load needs to go because it is to much and I just want to live and it be off of me, I want peace ¬ Have to keep forcing myself to do things& of I had it my way I would just lay in bed all day .But I can't peaceful rest of night I pray because to day has been a living hell of a nightmare hyposomniac has been messing with me all day& real bad attack just come out of no where, mom ask me when did you get like this& what makes you so nervous& if I keep on I will make her nervous are something worse. I think she feels like I should just shake it off omg I wish it was that easy, but I just wish she would be more understanding like I was for her. When she was going through her crisis like how can I get her to understand more clearly, and advice will be greatly appreciated and suggestions should I write her a letter and answer the question with everything in it I just need her to understand my day to day fight in my? Yall pray keep prayers coming I must win inspite of adversity &calamity,I can't even in the storm I can't &will not except defeat. Yall please say a prayer for a friend of mine who is struggling with hard situations as well as mental problems too. I
Will not except defeat never ,Iam so determined to have my good I can taste it I will win.