My typical situation is this: There is some issue that I am concerned about
. Often (though not always) it is some action that I took (or failed to take) -- or some decision that I made -- which I later regret, and I worry about
the potential consequences. When this happens, I often castigate myself and think constantly about
it. Why did I screw up? How could I have done that? Why I am such a moron? I replay in my mind (over and over) how I could have done better or not made a stupid decision. I think about
the worst case scenario consequences. It can interfere with my getting to sleep. Or if I get to sleep, then I wake up too early, thinking about
whatever issue it is, and I cannot get it off my mind or get back to sleep. In the mornings, I often have a physical feeling of anxiety -- I guess I would describe it as a nervous tension. Sometimes it feels like I have had too much caffeine (though I had none at all). When I get out of bed and get the day going and become busy, it often gets somewhat better. But it takes some effort to get out of bed and get going.
Despite all this, I seem to function OK -- I do an intellectually demanding job pretty well and am more or less successful in various areas of my life. But the anxiety is like a weight around my neck.... and I sure wish it would disappear.
Post Edited (medved) : 4/6/2014 9:43:29 AM (GMT-6)