Major anxiety, PTSD, Major TMJ pain problems

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, mainly from the assault that caused my broken jaw, but also from waking up to my gf that had died in herhttps://www.healingwell.com/community/emoticons/confused.gif sleep. She was 21 and I was 24 and still dealing with my jaw problems and med problems. I became addicted to my meds, 8 hydrocodone a day, 4 soma. for 7 yrs, got new doc and started taking 3 opana a day, 4 oxy/acatmephen, 4 soma. switched to street drugs because those no longer helped. I now take suboxon to stop taking drugs and pain meds, but im in pain again. its coming back. I realy need my soma back, I tried a new thing that starts with a D and I felt like crap and slept for 2 days. Basicly my doc doesn't trusty me bc I did turn to drugs at 1 point for my pain. I now am on probation for 10 yrs after being caught with it! anyways, I need him to know I need my soma bc my spasm are out of control. I cramp and cant barley open my mouth and my cheeks shake like crazy. How can I explain to him to give me a chance with the soma. I have major panic attacks. I take Xanax 2mg , 3 times a day, and still get nervous. I'm afraid my new gf will be dead when I wake up. I need advice. sorry if i'm rambling. any takers please!!

Hi Boom and welcome.

I am really sorry to hear of your past traumas and your (understandable) current anxiety/PTSD issues.

What have you done in terms of therapy and/or self-help?

If I could make a strong plea for getting into therapy. It has helped so many of us here, myself included.

The thing that you are going through are treatable. I hope that you can look into talking to your doctor about finding someone to help you through this.

Keep talking with us as well. We are here to listen and support.

Scaredy Cat