More Then Anxiety

I've been doing what it takes to handle this situation and I've been going and going feeling if I just keep working and pushing foward, this situation would better within its self and all I got to do is keep going. Well that mind state works for a few days and then comes tumbling down, this up a few days down the next has got to change just to much and it makes me more than angry and my patience is very thin little to none to be clear.
How di one deal with depersonalization,ocd, depression, anxiety, FEAR dam and borderline Bipolar jacked all up I just know I need to tackle this all together and find out why visions like picturing myself falling and worse pops into my head out of no where real hard to explain but I no longer can work I feel I've tried to keep up with working but I don't no longer feel I can do it and work on pure healing I just need to focus on healing and that's it and not going to a job that's not worth my time alowing people to make the situation worse. Nope no longer can do it but how do I get mother to understand this is the choice I've made up my mind, and need her to understand and be supportive and Iam doing it to benefit me in the long run and to become a stronger better me. 6months of rehab are intense out paitent psycological therapy, I have to I no longer have a care for her trying to force talk me to stay at a job I hate and that's not beneficial to me mentally are financially I deserve more and have a right to more but need to strengthen me to go after that more.