Posted 7/11/2014 2:20 PM (GMT 0)
Hello....It's been a while since my last post. I started to feel like I needed distance from reading about anxiety because obsessing over the symptoms and constantly reading about them became comforting and equally as toxic. I'm sure many of you know what I mean. I'm a nurse and I've had to cut WAY back on my schedule because it was becoming increasingly hard to be around "ill" people without comparing their symptoms with myself. I only nurse 2-3 days a week....at best. My syptoms started when I was 38 and I am about to turn 42. I was convinced I would be in some awful physical shape by now. While I continue to suffer the symptoms of GAD, I am functioning better because I have an understanding of what it is and how it affects your body physically. I too suffer from the "Morning Anxiety" problem. It tends to be the worst time of the day for me. The part that's my fault is I haven't given up on my morning coffee. I have one cup. I continue to take my xanax .5 in the morning as well. I have never taken anti-depressants as I have been on a mission to avoid them. (Personal Choice) My symptoms are: dizziness, mental fog, muscle twitches, tingling at times, aches, fatigue and occasional vision disturbances. I have been through the gamut of doctors and tests. I am down to my yearly physical now. MRI's all clear. The only things I have found are a vitamin D def. and I did have a poitive ANA but just for inflammation. (NO Lupus patterns). No weakness or loss of sensation. I have gotten that tight muscle sensation in my arms and legs but it seems related to tension. I continue to struggle with staying positive and liking myself. I'm really trying hard to eliminate the stress in my life and feel some peace. I've always been there for everyone that I love and now it's time for me to be there for ME!! It's a daily battle that's for sure. My heart goes out to each of you. I am starting an Anxiety Support Group in my area. I find it crazy that there isn't one. It's called Life Balance because that's the one thing I think we all crave....Just a little balance again.