am back.

hi guys, am back and not happy about it either. oh well. skype nearly hacked, having issues with it. thank goodness for norton!!! can't skype partner, boo!!! getting over jet lag. have made appts for therapist and shrink. also i have picked up my excess meds from the pharmacist. buttons will most likely be staying with mum. i am not being cruel guys but i don't have the time for her at this point, and mum has built up a real bond with her and i have heard that mum would like having her. my sis going to sus it out. ofcourse i miss my little fur-ball and i love her dearly but i just don't have the time for her and i am moving about a lot with appointments and stuff and people can no longer watch her. i have cleansing sage burning as i type. i have slept in my bed with no problems, this is great. i think these panic episodes about the stuff you all know and i will try and not think about, (triggers) are in the past. my sis made up my bed and gave my place a spruce. i have reciprocated of-course. thx for the wonderful advice. i have a few things from my partner here and i feel better. i have a ring she spotted and it is a spinner ring. silver. it has a weave pattern and suits me. i picked up some bargains, drank fine bers and single malt whiskey. been to some lovely places too. (butterfly sanctuary and had a feed in a 16th century building that has been converted into a pub/restuarant. awesome bar. went to some historic towns and got dragged to every bloody charity shop in the uk!!!

been thinking of you all. rememer your coping skills. take care of you all. will try and get posting again soon. love. us!!! partner. i and buttons. oh, she said yes by the way. don't know if i mentioned it already.

Glad you are back and seem to be doing well.. So happy for you. You dog sounds like she will be in good hands with your mum..

slept a full 8 hours in my bed last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! burning the sage helped. this is terrific news, as you guys were aware of the immense struggles with the panic of doing so. as my motto goes and certainly is spot on 'slow and steady wins the race'. keep well guys and remember your coping skills.

thx very much.