OMG!!! What a night! I have three words to say; ASPIRIN, ICE PACK, and BEN GAY!!!
Like BillyB - I too have been stressing and agonizing over this day. The anticipatory anxiety hit me hard this morning and I had to bring out all my "BIG GUNS"; coping skills, mindfulness meditation, healthy distractions, and medication!
As I said in a earlier post, my company picked up a rather large account. I made it my personal mission that I was going to oversee this project. It didnt start off the very best. I met my employees at our office building. When I walked in and saw how disorganized everything is since Ive been gone really made my anxiety spike. I am big on organization and freak out when things aren't in their place. I had to walk back outside. I took a crew of ten to the site and got them started on their assigned area.
At first I felt like things were chaotic. I noticed I had a couple guys just standing around looking "lost" and waiting for my direction. I had to get out the ole "polisher" to repolish some of my leadership skills. I have been out of the game for awhile.
The night wore on and things actually began running smooth like butter! We worked hard but found the time to laugh and give each other a hard time! My guys really kicked some butt, I am so proud of them.
There was one breif period where I felt the anxiety bug start to creep up on me. My employees don't know my situation and I was concerned for just a sec that my "panicky feeling" would reveal itself. But I was armed with all the tools I need to manage my GAD and I slowed down, took some deep breaths and walked to the water fountain to get a quick drink and the next thing I knew, I was ready to rock n roll again!
I have the best support system ever - my wife! She stopped by to check on me and actually helped me work for a bit. I couldn't do any of this without her. ;)
When we got done I took all the guys to Waffle House to eat breakfast. We shared stories and laughed over a great meal!
Now that I am home, I feel beat and worn down (but in a good way). I had a wonderful night and am so glad I committed myself to this. I got the chance to get to know the people who work for me and how wonderful they are! I am so blessed to have them!
I appreciate all the support I have received. I have turned over a new leaf as I start this new journey to healing. It's amazing how facing your fears can really boost your confidence... Looking forward to running this project for atleast 5 days a week!
I'd like dedicate this night to you who are reading this - my friends. I think it was Helen Keller who said, "walking with a friend in the dark is much better than walking alone in the light"! This is so true!
Love you guys
God bless
Cornell
Post Edited (Cornell) : 10/17/2014 4:17:08 AM (GMT-6)