Giving up the fight

This is it, I'm done fighting with anxiety. I'm not going to let it rob me of my life anymore. I refuse to cancel anymore plans or worry about how I'll get through the day, because today is the day that I take my life back. It's my life and I will live it how I want to, anxiety or none. If my symptoms sneak up on me, let them. I'm going to feel them regardless, so what's the point? Avoiding life isn't making anything better, so I'm going to do what I want. This is the only way out and you can take it and get better, or leave it and stay stuck in the loop.

I've come so far since discovering this forum, because I came here seeking help and support not knowing that the answer I was looking for would never be found here. I am so thankful for the kind words, the encouragement and the amazing support that I've gotten and that everyone gives. You are all truly a blessing from God and I thank you from the bottom of my healing heart for getting me over this bump in my life. It's going to be a process to fully rid myself of anxiety, but I would take it over feeling hopeless any day. Everyone can recover, you are not a special case in which cannot be cured. You are worthy of a life without fear, and you deserve it just as much as anyone.

I encourage everyone to please PLEASE do yourself a favor and buy the book "At Last a Life" by Paul David. It may very well save your life if you feel like you can't live like this anymore. There's no miracle cure, the cure is within you and only when you stop trying to fight, will you overcome. I'm using this anxiety to get closer to God and to shape the person that I want to be for the rest of my life. I'm becoming a braver, more confident and positive me and I refuse to let anxiety take that away from me. I have good days and I have bad days, but I used to never have good days so I can already tell I'm making progress. Live along side your anxiety, don't try to rid it. If there's one thing I've learned to get me through these hard times, is that you need to stop trying to think yourself out of fear. Instead, embrace it and show it that you're not afraid. Its working for me, and I'd be darned if it won't work for you.

Just think about it. You're going to think anyway.

Much love and peace to you all.

Marj

Hi Marj

I am pleased to read that you are starting to feel better it sounds like you have a very positive attitude which is great and that will help you to get better. Thanks for the book recommendation I have not heard of that one but will look it up.

Stay with us and keep posting we are here if you need us.

Hibee

I woke up this morning for the first time, without anxiety. It was there deep down, but I paid it no mind and it didn't manifest into anything more. Once I decided to give up anxiety, I had hope. I even woke with a smile, and I haven't done that in years! If anxiety wants to hang around, that's okay because I'm giving it the space it needs to run its course. I will not be it's prisoner anymore. I'm on to something here, and I just know that there's no way I'll live the rest of my life with this condition. I refuse!

Hello Marj
I am so glad to hear that you are in good feelings, and thats the spirit.
Thats the way to go, i am so happy in your name... <3

I finished the book today, and I'm already seeing a difference in myself. It's difficult to accept something that you fear so much, but on many occasions today I felt the anxiety. That feeling in my gut that tells me to get ready, because girl you are about to get uncomfortable. To me, it's this body buzz of energy that I compare to being shot up with a thousand cups of coffee. My body says RUN and my mind says no way. I struggle hard with d.p. and it's difficult for me to be home alone with my own mind, that's when I struggle the worst. I'm still in therapy which I very much look forward to, but I'm able to be okay with my condition in the meantime. I accept what is happening to me, and I don't try to stop it. I'd rather get all the energy out at once then to let it slowly eat away at me throughout the day. This is what I'm learning, this is the only approach that is helping me, and this is what I will continue to do until my body heals itself. I'm in no hurry to be magically cured, I'm letting nature take its course and not worrying about when I will be recovered. It's exhilarating. I've read so many times that anxiety comes off in layers, and that is so true.

Again, I can't stress enough how much this book has helped in only a few days. It's a roller coaster, it really is, but what have I got to lose?

...I have to admit, I got nervous when I read your post title...that could be taken a couple of different ways!!

I am so glad that yours was in the positive direction!

Great job on finding what worked for YOU!

I came to a similar place of understanding through different methods...but the result if the same! Freedom! :)

Keep up the good work, and thanks for sharing the encouragment.:)

S.C.

I read this book and i can say its quite helpful, though i think that unfortunately you can ignore the physical symptoms and the mixed moods and emotions but not the stupid tricky fear of going crazy or developing a serious mental illness

congrats-you have reached a milestone. once you recognise anxiety and its symptons and then come to the realization that it cant hurt you -you can celibrate a victory. however we still have to live with the symptoms. just realize its not going to hurt you.

From what you are saying this sounds like what Claire Weekes says in her books. To basically just go with it and not fight it. I try and I think most days I manage to do that. Some days though my body and mind just cannot take it anymore and I start to fight it. Right now I'm sitting home alone supposed to be doing homework and doing everything but. I'm afraid to quiet my mind for even a minute and I hate that. I will check into this book and thanks for sharing it. Glad that you are feeling a difference from reading this.

  That's right!!  We ARE stronger than the anxiety!!

Keep up the great work!!

S.C.

MM.,

Don't despair!! The road to recovery is full of detours...

You have not lost ground, you just need to get back on track, and you WILL!!

We all have challenging days. However, you have shown such great leaps and bounds in your recovery (see above posts!) that you will be feeling back at that good place, no problem.:)

Definitely talk with your doctor honestly when you go in...letting him/her know all of your goals for managment/recovery. You are in charge of what you do and do not want to do/take. Listen to the recommendations, sure...but ultimately the decision is yours!

Keep up the good work in your therapy. You are going to continue to make progress! What coping skills are you currently using? Do you need some further suggestions? Let me know.:)

S.C.

MM.,

How about therapy worksheets...have you ever used these?

You can take a particular worry/situation/circumstance and break it down according to the probability of any negative outcomes, reality vs. the anxiety, ect...

Very effective for difussing fears.:)

Take a look through these...there are tons to choose from. The first few however might be the best for your needs.

Therapy Work Sheets:

http://www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm



S.C.

Thank you so much, I will definitely try those out