RN,
I am sorry you are suffering so.;(
IDK if you saw the links with the
self-help coping skills that I posted on your last similar thread...here is the link for easy access to them again.
https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=3275114&g=3275512#m3275512
I encourage you to learn and practice these...they will help! :)
In support,
S.C.