I have felt so disconnected with myself lately I don't know what to do. I miss my dad so much and I just can't wrap my head around the fact that he isn't here. I know he's here in soul but I just miss everything and it's causing me to feel lost in reality.
I haven't been getting along with my mom either and she's pushing me to do all this stuff and I just feel so lost and have no one. We never really talked to my family so it's just all awkward for me talking. It was always just me and my dad and mom and it just all feels so different. My anxiety has been really bad lately my thoughts have just been so off. I don't think I have completely let in the fact of all of what happened and I'm just so scared.
I've never dealt with someone close passing, although close people have, not this close. I just feel like I don't understand any of it.