Here it comes

Well I got through the morning anxiety okay with the help of my medicine but it is wearing off. I did my deep breathing exercise little help. What sets me off in the afternoon is when my husband leaves for his coffee break with his buddies for about two hours. Let me say I am 53 has been is 70 so recently with several close friends passing that has sent my mind spiraling about what if something happened to my husband. How could I survive I hate being alone. I have children and grandchildren that idore but still scared. Can't imagine my life without him but why am I looking into the future instead of taking it day by day and enjoying every day.? I'm hoping my Zoloft will help me with this and maybe start therapy. I can feel the vibrations and anxiety stirring and I know the crying will start soon. I hate this feeling going to continue with deep breathing.

Thank you so much I'm really having a hard time right now I can't stop crying. so I had to go ahead and take half of my Ativan. That makes me feel like a failure. Then wonder if you're ever going to get better I know it's only been a couple weeks back on medicines but I can't stop my mind from thinking. I will have to look at your resources thank you again.

What you say is so true but so many doctors are trying to get people off Ativan now that it just makes me feel bad when I have to use it but it is so helpful to me. Thank you for your encouraging words.

Ok Barb, I don't have anxiety but my husband does I'm one of the outsiders I know because unless you actually feel something you can never say I understand. I have stuff going with me that all I can do is try to explain to him what I'm feeling and with his anxiety sometimes he can't explain anything he just explodes! One thing I try to tell him is it is ok to FEEL what you are feeling. If I tried going through my day saying to my self no you don't have RA it's all just your imagination ( then someone please certify me insane) and feel like I've done something wrong because I need a stupid pill so that I can walk like a human instead of Igor ( yes master ) :) then that just wouldn't do. I despise the fact that I need pain pills everyday. And my husband after starting Zoloft has needed his Xanax less often ( used to be everyday) and it was me who said " Hun take the pill , ok , take half then" he Hates the pill too. The stigma of a medicine that some body put on TV is highly addictive. Yadda yada I say. You can't be addicted to someone you need. My husband also gets very upset when I drive to work ( about 60 miles) he too goes thru what would I do without you , something could happen. So here's what we do. Maybe it will help. Before I go out the door he takes me in his arms we now our heads and he prays for my safe journey there and back. It has helped him a lot he is able to give his cares to God and at the same time speak what he is feeling anxious about. I hope maybe this can help. I know what you both are going thru.
May the force be with you


And so many think that tears are a sign of weakness. Well I have done a lot of crying and I did it alone. And I BELIEVE that a woman's tears are not a weakness . They are our strength. They are the building blocks of strength and wisdom. What wonderful teachers they are. They fall but you get up.

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It really isn't a good idea to be in a crowd when you are not feeling well even I ( I think he has rubbed off on me ) can't stand crowds like amusement parks or Santa Monica Pier. I feel like this crushing feeling like I get smaller and they are burying me alive. It weird. And I freaked out almost in New York Penn station. There are so many People in New York! Do you like to read or watch a DVD even if you have have seen it 1000 times just try to focus on something enjoyable sip some tea and relish the quiet. There is time enough for the unpleasant enjoy the now !

You could always amuse yourself by .. Uh let's see .. Call aaa and tell them you locked your keys in your motorcycle lol

Feeling so good tonight. Hoping for a panic free morning.

Barb , you have body vibrations too ?
I get them too I was wondering if they from Zoloft or anxiety or both :/, they don't bother me too much but it feels weird for sure .

Girls i use to get them, the worst was a buzzing in my groin, i always thought it was from a Cath but you
have made me rethink it. Peace

Larry ***

Hi Barb

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time of it at the moment I hope you are feeling a bit better today?

Living with anxiety and depression can be hell with the constant up's and down's so it is important to do every thing possible to help you improve things. I find Mindfulness Meditation really helpful and try to live my life in the moment it takes a bit of practice but it's well worth the effort have a look into it we have some info on it in our resources section.

Hibee

Well after med kicked in I did make myself go to breakfast with friends. I was able to stay an hour and didn't do bad at all. I know it was the anxiety med that got me there but I'll take it. Hoping everyone has a calm day. Peace.

Well 6 hours after anxiety med and feeling good. Here it comes. Dang it. Wish I could make through 1 whole day. 😞 hate this anxiety and crying. Ugh 😢

Thanks $herlock. You're a hoot. 2nd one helped somewhat. Sitting here deep breathing and gonna watch more basketball with hubby. How did your day go?

As yesterday's post before this one was bad and full of anxiety, I'm happy to say tonight's post is good. No crying today with the help of my anxiety medicine made it through the whole day and was able to go to the store thanks for everyone's support