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I have finally gotten a date for ALJ for SSD. can't leave the house

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Posted 2/5/2015 11:58 PM (GMT 0)
After waiting almost 2 years for a ssd hearing date, I am terrified when thinking about it! Makes no logical sense but, I just can't even think about making a long trip to have people analyze me. I have mild CP and huge anxiety issues. This decision would make a huge difference in my life. I guess a favorable decision would obviously help financially but, would also confirm I am a freak who can't control my emotions. A turndown would confirm that I am lazy and everything that I think I feel is just crazy. The pain in my knees and feet would confirm I am a whimp! I hate this! I can't even look authority figures or strangers in the eye b/c I think they are looking at my lazy eye. So, if I don't look the judge in the eye, he will think I am a liar. Can someone tell me if they have gotten through this process?
Posted 2/6/2015 12:37 AM (GMT 0)
Please don't talk about yourself this way. Not being able to go to your hearing is proof of your illness not being a freak. I wish you luck and hope all works out.
Posted 2/6/2015 2:42 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for your post. Its hard to believe that I don't have this under control. I have to calm down about this. Its March 2nd. I can't get worked up for almost a month. I am so scared though.
Posted 2/6/2015 4:06 AM (GMT 0)
Eda, what's he going to do, he cant kill you and eat you, thats an old army joke, fear is the motivator of all
anxiety and panic. Yet it is powerless with out our help, we give these emotions all the power they have and
we can take it away, "give mindfulness a try", I wish you Peace,

Larry ***
Posted 2/6/2015 3:00 PM (GMT 0)
Hey you are not alone. My dad has been waiting for the same thing. He wants to work! But he knows he cant and my mom doesnt want him to. He had a bad reaction with liver meds and the heat and has had severe anxiety since. You cant always control what happens or when you get money! Take it easy. I know the irrational thoughts get to you. Nobody there is even going to notice your lazy eye.
So what if they do. Have a good one friend.

nomoworries

Post Edited (Scaredy Cat) : 2/6/2015 8:03:37 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/6/2015 3:01 PM (GMT 0)
Everyone deserves compassion, including yourself. As hard as it is, try to let go of the ideas of success or failure, weak or strong, good or bad. These are all unrealistic absolutes. You are a human being trying to survive, and are taking the steps to take care of yourself. Hold your head up high. You are being brave and putting yourself out there for the sake of yourself! No matter the outcome, you will cope, you will survive, and you will be a strong person.

Jolleg
Posted 2/6/2015 3:09 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Eda and welcome,
I compiled the responses from your other (duplicate) post here, so the last two responses are not from me, though my name appears as the poster...since I moved them and posted them here. They are from Nomoworries and Jolleg, as they appear at the bottom of their response.
You have received a lot of great encouragement so far, so I will just add a couple of thoughts.
Can you take a long a trusted friend or family member with you the day of the hearing? This could help to distract you, and keep you in a calm mood as you drive in and prepare to talk and present your case.
...and until the date of your hearing, try practicing coping skills to keep you centered and at peace everyday! We have some great ones here in our Resources. Here is the link below. The meditation and stress relieveing exercises links are wonderful. You will lessen your overall anxiety levels, and be able to shift your worries from your upcoming concern.
https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206

Wishing you the best! Post with us anytime.
Scaredy Cat
Posted 2/6/2015 6:33 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you all for your advice. I just want to live each day without irrational fear. The problem is that it is so real to me. I obviously need to speak to my councilor. I can't even make a hair appointment b/c I never know if I am going to want to leave the house. I am afraid to be in crowds b/c I am afraid someone will knock me down. I have poor balance from my cp. Did anyone have similar issues and overcome this? I sound like I am wining. Sorry. My mom always said that I would complain if they hung me with a new rope. I just need some hope I can get over this and join the world. Life is passing me by while I hide from the world.
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