Today is a new day!

Hello everyone . So happy that nightmare of a day -yesterday- is over. Couldn't take it! Everything I did went wrong - literally. The list goes on and on and on- haven't had a day like that in a long time! Thankfully no anxiety attacks but major depression /-: was very emotional and all I did was cry. I was out all day and just overall was horrible. And today i wake up shakey with that feeling in my chest that's uneasy and feels like if I take too much of a dee breath I'll get heart palpitations. Ugh. I guess it all caught up to me. I usually talk to my oldest daughter she'll only be 10 but she knows about me and my anxiety. She always talks me through it. She went to ATLANTA yesterday with my mmm to see my sister and nephew so it's just me and my 5 yr old and 3 month old. My 5 year old is good for me to talk to too because she knows about it as well and calms me down -- wow is that bad!? She's very mature for her age but they know how I get and know im going to "be okay" so they know how to talk me through it at times(: I think it's just so sweet of them, really! Deep down I know im going to be okay too but when you're going through it when you're in the moment nothing keeps you from over reacting and thinking the worst of the worst and your body just does what it wants which doesn't help one bit either. Will it ever get better?? Im going to look into "in home therapists" once I am settled in my new home which is hopefully sooner than later because I am really desperate in the department of talking to another adult who understands this terrible mess I deal with everyday. I can't even eat right im losing weight and i don't need too that's just the last thing on my mind. All that's on my mind is getting better and learning to deal with this. If it weren't for my kids I wouldn't even get out of bed in the mornings. It takes everything out of me to get through the day. Needless to say night time is my favorite time of the day ! ! It's only 10:52am here and I can't wait until bed time !😩 which makes my days soo much longer. Ugh a mess a mess a mess ! !

LMA,

I encourage you to make time to do some coping skills today...they will help, I promise.

Do you journal? I think this could be a helpful outlet for you as well. It is a great way to get feelings out, and also a good tool for tracking progress! ;)

If you can, just make yourself eat...as in forcing regular meals if you have to...

...it will help your mood. Low blood sugar can and will affect mood, and how you feel physically. If you can't tolerate solids...try a meal replacement shake/smoothie. This way you are at least getting calories and nutrients that you need to fight depression and anxiety!

Wishing you continued strength in dealing with all you have to. You are pretty amazing you know.;) I think you are doing great...and with the help that you are seeking...use of coping skills...and some time for further recovery, there will be no stopping you!

Hugs and high fives!

S.C.