Posted 4/4/2015 9:53 PM (GMT 0)
If you guys have read my previous posts you know a little bit about me. Recap: I hit such a rough patch last year and for nearly 17 months now I was diagnosed with and have gone through severe anxiety and depression…I am overweight, have gallstones, and due to my depression I don't exercise enough, or don't want to most of the time. I was basically bedridden for the first 7 months before I started working again, the only exercise I get is at work. The rest of the time I don't want to. My psychologist said not exercising enough may have contributed to my muscle aches, which only started about 3 months ago, I woke up with horrible pain in the left side of my body in my neck, shoulder, chest and arm. I went to the E.R. and it turns out the doctor said it was ""muscular" after I told them I have anxiety and depression. I haven't had pain like that since so it was probably a compressed nerve. I have had horrible posture when I work and sit since last January, I'm trying to fix that. When I'm working my arms don't hurt, they hurt a little bit at rest the next day and when I'm very anxious. Sleep is no longer a problem for me…it definitely was up until about a couple months ago. The constant stress, anxiety, and depression I have experienced has worn me out emotionally and physically. I don't breathe correctly most of the time, and trying to fix that too. My stress, anxiety, and depression have all gotten a little bit better so I have noticed a few changes in how I feel but my muscle aches make me stressed and nervous. I talk to myself over and over again, telling me its all anxiety and I just have to work through it. It's not even painful, its like a dull ache, right between my shoulder and elbow for both arms. My shoulders and neck get sore too. I find myself crying sometimes when I can't control my anxiety and get overwhelmingly inconsolable when my thoughts turn to "you have MS or fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue syndrome" and no offense to anyone who has those diseases, its just part of my anxiety that makes me terrified of them. I just want to be myself again.