Update!

Hi everyone!
Hope you all had a great easter.. :)
I would like to give you an update on my progress.. I have been feeling better since 14th March now, I felt myself getting better day by day.. having some anxiety days still.. but now the good days outweigh the bad.
I am trying to be busy, doing some exercise from time to time (Zumba is amazing) and also Yoga. I try to eat healthy, eating fruits and veggies almost daily. and I also go to a Psychologist to talk and change my negative thinking.. I also pray and go to church.. it helps me cope
I know I may have some bad days or moments again, but I am trying to live day by day, cos life is too short.
I am on 20 mg Cipralex daily and 0.75 Xanax daily. My doctor shall decrease the xanax in a month's time, if I keep progressing.. until I will go off them completely, and he also told me that in some months time I shall also go down to 10 mg Cipralex daily as I used to take it before. Hopefully it would go well!
I am writing to you this post so that you have hope that things will get better. I have spent 3 months, 3 whole months, struggling daily.. thinking this will never be over. There were times where I also felt S- word, but that small voice in my head kept telling me to give it another day.. and eventually I am feeling better, thanks to God!

But mostly I would like to say THANK YOU to all of you, for giving me courage, for keeping me sane, for helping me with your encouraging words that I will get better. I will stay on here, to give courage to others who are struggling with depression, anxiety, panic attacks and OCD as well...
For those who are struggling, keep fighting! it truly is worth it! and so what if you have to take medication for the rest of your lives? There are so many who take insulin for diabetes, etc... if it makes you feel better, then take it! It definitely won't change your character... it will level up the serotonin in your system, which is hard REALLY HARD to do on your own with medication, not saying it's impossible, but hard.

Also, medication won't do everything, you need to work on yourself and your problems too... I have realized that during this relapse.. I have a lot of past issues which have made me how I am today. I am not cured from depression and anxiety, I dont think I will ever be.. But I can manage it, and I will keep on fighting..

Thank you all again for your help, you have helped me in so many ways!

XXXXXXX
Melissa

Thank you Hibee! You have helped me so much, I have re-read the comments you left me so many times, while I was struggling. but it is true, medication does not do everything, you have to combat depression by other techniques such as yoga, breathing, eating healthy and exercise..