I just want to wake up calm

It sounds like you're doing better than when you first posted, which is good.

If I could offer some advice, it would be to go to sleep not wishing that tomorrow will be a nice calm day (although I understand the thought). In my experience, a better attitude will be 'I'll get some sleep and if I wake up feeling happy and ready to take on the day, that's great. If I don't feel too great, then I'll deal with it'.

Essentially, don't put too much pressure on yourself and just deal with feelings as they come. Let them have their moment and their power over you will diminish.

Hi night crawler and Hibee,
I just put up another post because I had an epiphany this morning!!! Up until a week and 3 days ago I was drinking large quantities of Diet Coke 5 to 7 cans a day for 15 years. of course I do have anxiety and had it for 20 years and I now have PTSD and some depression and lots and lots of stress in my life but I started to research aspertane withdrawal and I have 3 single 1 every single withdrawal symptom... Anxiety heart palpitations headache nausea foggy brain confusion blurred eyesight... I stopped drinking it because I was so anxious and I was putting so much caffeine into my body but then when I bought the caffeine free I still was putting the poison in so I stopped. so many people including my fiance would tell me all the time how bad it was for me that it actually disrupt your brain chemistry it kills neuronsand Cells so I think on top of dealing with the medicines reactions I'm also dealing with aspartame and caffeine withdrawal which is making every symptom worse... I think it's beginning to come out my system because I actually slept last night I mean I woke up two times but I was able to put myself back to sleep without any sleeping pill. I do take a sleeping pill every night since I started taking medication but when I think about it it's been really bad since I quit Diet Coke so that there might be a connection there...