I have been gone for a while. But I'm back, because you all always make me feel better and think clearly. I have been on Zoloft for about
2.5 months and I went back to the doctor because it wasn't working very well. She prescribed me Wellbutrin to take with it. It has helped tremendously! I feel more focused and clear headed.
The other day I got a bug bit on the back of my head, of course I pocked and picked at it. I made it super sore, and then one morning I was getting ready for work and I was touching the bug bit and ran my hand down my neck and felt a little knot/bump/whatever under my skin close to my skull. I had a full blown mental health meltdown. It hasn't gotten bigger, it's there sometimes and other times not. I don't know if it was a swollen lymph nod from the bug bite? But me pocking at it doesn't help things. I am very much psychosomatic, my neck hurts now (I stretch it constantly because I have made it sore, which in turn makes it more sore). I have been pocking and looking over my whole body for swollen lymph nodes. I have made all my muscles hurt. I don't know how, but nothing hurt before I discovered the little whatever it is on the back of my neck. So far I think it's lymphoma, but I have also had the thoughts that maybe a poisonous bug bit me on the head and it's slowly killing me. I am certifiably crazy
