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Posted 7/17/2015 8:35 AM (GMT 0)
Hello everyone, I hope your day is going well.
I haven't been here lately because I have felt a lot better with regards to my depression.. I am taking Cipralex at 20mg now since March and Xanax .75mg daily.
With regards to the intrusive thoughts about my bf, they are still there. Sometimes days are harder than others. Obviously with the intrusive thoughts comes anxiety and it's crippling me.. With anxiety and intrusive thoughts I start feeling down. Then I'm thinking are the meds really helping? Should I be changing the meds?
Now mostly I have good days which last a couple of weeks or days.. and bad days which last for a couple of days. I want to ask whether this is normal? Or whether I really should change the meds?
I went to see my doctor last week and he seems confident in the progress that I have made. The thing is, that when I went to see him I had decreases the xanax from .75 to .50 a day and it was going okay until the anxiety hit again and now I'm up to 0.75 once again. Yesterday was the first day in a week and a half that I felt better, no sadness, little anxiety and intrusive thoughts.. overall ok.

The thing is, I'm always questioning myself.. Should I still be feelings this way (going up and down) even at the highest dosage of cipralex? 20mg.
I am not sure whether the depression is because I have depression or because I have doubts regarding my bf.. but then when I think about leaving him, I feel even worse! He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, so why should I doubt my love for him?
I feel like I am not capable of change, of marriage, of having kids... of anything really.

What if I get pregnant while I am taking all those meds? what then? I am constantly having these thoughts and they r driving me insane..

Can anyone please input their opinion on this?
Posted 7/17/2015 10:08 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

Welcome back to the forum.

I am pleased to hear your depression is a lot better that is good news Cipralex is a great medication imo so I would stick with it.

It sounds to me like you are making good progress but don't beat yourself up if you have a set back these happen on our route to recovery and you need to stay positive and tell yourself that you can get through it. If you ever experience an increase in your anxiety or depression it's a sign you need to double up on your coping skills.

I struggle with intrusive thoughts but I have learnt to let them go by telling myself it is just my anxiety disorder make me think this way and to just ignore the thoughts which is hard to do but the more you practice it the easier it becomes.

With regards to getting pregnant whilst taking medication it would be worth while speaking with your doctor as far as I know some meds are ok but others are not.

Keep us posted.

Hibee
Posted 7/17/2015 3:46 PM (GMT 0)
SR,

Thanks for checking in...and glad to hear that you have had some progression forward.

Even with the off days, you still sound like things are moving along...and you can hope to keep improving with time.

Have you tried the Therapy Worksheets in our Resources for working through those intrusive thoughts? They can really help!

As can the stress relieving exercise links found there if practiced daily.

When a hard day hits, you can hit back with extra coping skills to make sure you are staying on top.;)

Keep posting with us...we care and are always glad to hear from you!

S.C.
Posted 7/17/2015 5:26 PM (GMT 0)
Instead of asking yourself questions which promote stress, maybe you should try to divert that energy to asking yourself questions that brings you forward such as what can you do to make yourself better, how you can reconfigure your brain slowly to accept your flaw and understanding that you can rewire yourself. I read a research article about backtracking your thoughts and totally correcting it from the root. "Why am i upset, what was i really thinking"? Our brain is a fast processor but it can be slowed down. Cheer up, you can do this.
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