am I going to be like this forever?

first and foremost I want to think this site for being here for all of us suffering. I feel like I'm very close to hitting a brick wall. in a couple of my posts a couple weeks ago I talked about how I got PTSD and I am just constantly fighting the derealization anxiety that I've been played withon top of that I don't have a very good support system. because of the DR I locked myself in my room and it's dark and cold. I turn to my sibling for help and all she did was cut me down to my very core by calling me uglybroke pathetic a parasite HTC it was so hurtful and horrible that I cry my eyes out for 3 days. I so desperately want to feel like myself again and I don't know what else to do to get there. I've tried 7 different medications all to no avail. I've been trying to get in to see a therapist but my doctor has been blowing me off a matter of fact I have to cut ties with her tomorrow because she has no empathy and just keeps pouring pills on me but won't talk to me about how they're making me feel. I'm just struggling right now because I've always had anxiety but I also knew how to love life despite the fact that I've also been on pain medication 3 years many years because my back and my neck were injured in a bad car accident so I'm always very nervous with any medication and mixing medications. I feel like the joy has been sucked out of me because of my derealization anxiety and depression. I have a child who has special needs that depends on me and I feel so useless lately I don't know what to do anymore sometimes I feel like just giving up and I don't want to but do I have any other choice? will this get better? thank you to all of you your encouragement it means so much to me especially when I had my own family member tell me what a worthless piece of crap I am and the sad part is I have done everything for my sibling without complaint or comment when he went through a hard time and now because I'm going through a hard time she won't even come by say hello I feel so sad

GP,

I responed to your other post as well...so you can ignore my question regarding the therapy...you answered it here!

...and yes, I would say you should start to search for a new doctor if she is not helping you find a therapist! Shame on her for this...and not being sympathetic! :/

Do your best to try and do a new self-help everyday...as well as the ones you have tried and found beneficial to you.

I know it's hard...but it will be worth the effort in the long run!

We are your support team...talk to us anytime you need to okay?

S.C.

im kind of the same way.. not really because I dont have people that are around me or care about me.. but because I dont really share my anxiety with them... I want to but when I start to they seem like they just dont know what to say or do.. so I keep it to myself other then coming on here and typing