Hi all
I was wondering if it's possible my brain becomes so accustomed to having anxiety around that it doesn't want to live without it anymore? I mean anxiety exists to protect us from harm. I rmb from a guided meditation it said anxiety serves to protect us and when we feel happy/not anxious its almost like we're vulnerable and the mind scurries to return to anxious mode so we stay defensive.
The thought of the day where I break free from disruptive anxiety or when anxiety-inducing situations cease to be so anymore is so surreal to me like huh are you sure that's it? It's almost like I can't imagine a life without it and it's weird.
I'm thinking if I'm merely "going through the motions" of trying to get better but not actually believing it's going to happen.......well happen to a satisfying degree.
Anyway my last session with my therapist got cancelled bc she was on mc so I'm only seeing her next month. Which is a bummer bc this means I don't get to see her this entire break to talk about
lots of stuff I came up with to discuss AND I haven't seen her in idk 2 months? Talk about
ineffective
their schedule is so packed the average session intervals are 3 weeks.
I'm not sure if they schedule cases in accordance to severity of our condition? Any thoughts? Bc I couldn't imagine what it's like for patients who need urgent help to have to wait that long.