be gone for a while.

I've decided to "unplug", no Internet, little phone, etc.
Need to get myself together, and figure things out.

My palpitations are more frequent,
Last night I had what I think is a long run of them,
My heart beat faster, and seemed to skip beats in between fast beats. I checked and it was 79 bpm, I think it may be the mint chocolate ice cream I had.
They seem to bother me after I've eaten.

So I've decided instead of googling, because I have been every waking moment lastnight/today. And worrying.

I need to see my doctor, tomorrow, and trust them.
Meditate more, do yoga.
And just overall distance myself from the internet,
and anything that is "unhealthy" to my anxiety.

I've been having some financial issues,
and I'm so close to giving up hope
That anything will get better and I can't do that.

I think I'm just to the tipping point,
I've been like this for 9 months.

One day I felt normal, and the next,
I was a completely different person.
It's all so overwhelming..

I hope that your sabbatical is just what you need to get focused.

If you need to talk, just e-mail me. I'll be praying that all situations get worked out soon.

Thank you.
I'm sure ill be back,
This is the one site I'll be on if anything.

You all help so much!
And I'm eternally grateful!

You're in my prayers!

I'm glad you liked the doctor.

I hope you can use those coping skills to push away those palps.

Digestive issues cause a lot of problems. I hope you find a diet that agrees with you, and med that does as well.

S.C.,
Thank you! (:

Larry,
I'm sure I'll be on here sometimes! You guys all help so much!

Sean,
Thank you. I'm trying, it's rough.


A Little Update:

I've avoided facebook for the most part the last week or so, something i'd be on a lot.
Oddly enough, i'm enjoying not being on there. lol.
I've only been on here, and online ordering some running shoes. (:
I've drastically changed my diet, mainly lunches, and eating normal but less for dinner.
I haven't taken my omeprazole for 5 days, was trying to see if it was what was causing my palps,
but it's not, so i'll resume taking it today. I've been tired a lot more, I think my thyroid may be temporarily being a jerk. I go back to see my Dr January 8th at 2pm, for follow up for blood work I'm getting done at the end of this month.

I've been trying to ignore the skipped beats, but when I get 3 fast in a row, it freaks me out, that's only happened twice. but still, so I try and calm myself down and tell myself that "ITS JUST MY STOMACH",
I tend to calm down fairly fast now, no panic attacks in a week! Which is MAJOR for me! Especially lately.
I've been reading up on Mitral Valve Prolapse more, I only have VERY LITTLE regurgitation, but part of me thinks that's my problem.

I spoke to the dr I seen on Saturday about the Holter Results back in April. He said out of all of the PVCs I felt, only TWO showed up on the monitor! That kind of helped reassure me that what I feel may NOT be all horrible.
I also keep telling myself that I was in the ER 11/27 for the palps, and my EKG looked good.
You'd think for someone whos had a 24 hour holter monitor, event monitor for 2 weeks, echocardiogram, and MINIMUM 18 EKGS, and countless ER visits hooked up to a heart monitor for 1-6 hours, I'd believe the drs by now! Looking at that after typing it, makes me seem ridiculously insane..

Never in a million years would I think id be SUCH a hypochondriac. But, I'm slowly getting there. Walking in the evenings that my husband is home with him and my girls. (:
We live in a trailer park, so we don't have to worry about walking on a main road, except for part of the walk, which is nice. I'm just overall trying to be positive. Trying to not dwell on the anxiety anymore, and accept and embrace the progress I've made, even if it's only a little bit.

I'm also ONE pound away from losing 30 pounds since May!
I hit my highest weight at 319, it was terrifying, but now that I've got my thyroid levels down,
it seems to be helping with the weight loss!
I'm now down to 290 and not stopping til I hit my goal weight, which is 200!

Thank you all for everything you do for me, and everyone else on here.
I don't know where I'd be without this forum,
Honestly!

Thank you for reading this entire thing also!
Just wanted to get it all out!
Feels good!

Thank You!
Its the toughest thing I think I've ever had to go through!
I've had three surgeries and they weren't even this rough! haha.

Thank you, so much. Truly.
Before I found this site I was always asking myself of there was anyone else out there that suffered the way I did,
With the things I did.
Since finding this site,
I've been able to find relief in knowing that I'm not alone and everyone here is just amazing, and supportive.