I feel like im at the end of the road

I woke up this morning feeling hopeless, guilty, and I feel all this medication has done is fogged my mind up to the point that I can concentrate on things. I feel like i will permantely feel like this and that there is no escape. Ive been trying so hard to study for a industry certification and my mind just doesnt allow me to retain the information. Everyday feels the same and my mind just replays old things that ive done (nothing bad) but just causes me excessive guilt. I feel like at the end of each day Im going to live like this for the rest of my life. This thinking then pushes me to have suicidal thoughts (i would never do this) but I worry that the meds will one day not make me scared because of its numbing and fogging effect.

Sorry for the rant guys, maybe im just in a rut but i just feel like im at the end of the line and I dont thinking taking more medication will help. I cant seem to properly think when I try to do mindful meditation due to this foginess.

Aloha,

AK

AK,

Could you need a med change??

Aloha, it just doesnt work that way, you could not stay the way you are now if you wanted to, I promise! It was established long ago in research that even people with no help at all recover at the same rate as those who have medication and therapy. The meds and therapy just make the whole trip somewhat easier.
"Give yourself time to get well, and don't waist the time you have".
There is much you can do to help yourself and the bad days will start to fade! Peace

Larry ***