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Posted 2/24/2016 6:33 AM (GMT 0)
Sorry guys,was sick and bed ridden for months.

I need your help as I have become monster like my husband an abusive.

I have all traits of him and I just hate myself now.

My anxiety is sky high and been crying for straight 12 days now,my eyes give up on me.

I take Lexapro,Xanax and Ativan .all min dosage.
Should I change or increase dosage or what can I do.
Staying with a bipolar man has ruined my personality and made me feel guilty how abusive I m with my mom and sisters who live with me for now,I yell at them and beat them brutally ,,,I m scared to go to jail.

I lost my sanity and need a direction.
They love me and can't see me fall apart.

I have not done drugs or extreme crazy drinking stuff ever before and stay in bed most days so I m safe.
But I feel guilty to treat my loving family the way I was treated.

Where n how to start. shakehead cry eyes
Posted 2/24/2016 9:32 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Cilly

Welcome back.

When you are dealing with continued high anxiety it can cause you to feel angry and you can abuse loved ones I have been there myself.

You need to really do all you can to get your anxiety back under control and I would suggest your first port of call should be your doctor as I suspect you need an increase in your Lexapro. I always think it is good to also speak with a therapist as I find that the most effective way to get back on top of things.

Be open with your family tell them how you are feeling and apologies for how you have treated them and I am sure they will be supportive.

Keep us posted.

Hibee
Posted 2/24/2016 2:03 PM (GMT 0)
I agree with Hibee - talk to your doctor as an increase is probably needed.

And be open and honest. They can't help you if they don't know you are struggling.

I hope things start getting better for you, cilly!
Posted 2/24/2016 4:46 PM (GMT 0)
I will third this advice...

A med evaluation is needed right away! Please call your doctor a.s.a.p.

I am sorry you are going through a rough time currently. However it is excellent that you recognize the need for a change...and I am confident you'll do all you can to get the help you need.

Please keep us posted, and we will be in support!

Make that call now!

S.C.
Posted 2/25/2016 3:50 AM (GMT 0)
Talk to you doctor and get some additional help right away. As you know, abuse is never ok.

Best wishes.
Posted 2/25/2016 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
Cilly, you are in my Prayers. Peace

Larry ***
Posted 2/26/2016 7:01 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you all for your kind words and support.I have booked appt with my doc to check meds.Also I am extremely stressed and in deep anxiety since past few months.

I can't cope well but trying .

Keep me in your prayers.
Posted 2/26/2016 7:19 AM (GMT 0)
Cilly,

You are trying, taking great steps to make your situation better! Well done on making that appointment, and keeping us updated, so we can keep you in support...

...and yes, of course our prayers!

S.C.
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