Posted 4/4/2016 9:19 AM (GMT 0)
Good Morning or evening depending on where you are in the world.
I found this forum when i typed "how to overcome guilt from a panic attack."
I had a aniexty melt down at the weekend - i had been out for drinks with my bf and a few of his friends for a brithday celebration - my inital anxiety about going (what are people going to think of me, what are ppl going to think about my wardrobe choices, how can i leave if i don't feel comfortable etc etc) disappeared once we had arrived and the evening started.
And it was a really good night and then it all went down hill right at the end.
My bf and I (thanks to the booze) couldn't agree/weren't listening to each other and so we ended up having a disagreement and whilst normally i can cope with that - the alcohol didn't help and i started to get anxious and i went into a full blow panic attack.
All my fears came to the surface again - he was going to leave me in the middle of a town i don't know, he was angry with me and i couldn't fix it, he didn't want to be with me any more (see the pattern of the fears getting worse!?!) I was hysterical and i couldn't stop. I couldn't calm down. I wanted to - so badly.
I want to be norml again. I don't want to constantly be worrying about what's going to happen in 6/12 months time. I don't to live in constant fear that my anxiety is going to ruin the relationship i have with most perfect human on this earth. I don't want to be afraid of going out with friends that i would normally go to for advice or guidance.
The biggest thing is i don't want to feel guilty anymore. I feel like i cam carrying around this ball and chain of guilt that i couldn't control myself while we were out, that i embarrased myself and my bf in front of strangers.
If anyone has any ideas, tips or suggestions then please please please let me now.
Thankyou in advance.