Hi S.G.,
I am sorry that you are dealing with the doubtful, 'what-if' thoughts regarding your med re-start. I know how difficult it can be to turn these around and replace them with positive ones...
...but it is crucial that you do so. Not only will it lower your overall anxiety levels, but thinking in the affirmative can actually help to ensure a desirable outcome for your situation.
Here is the link to some great Therapy Worksheets that will help you to redirect your thoughts. They really work given time and practice.:)
Therapy Work Sheets:
www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm
With encouragement!
S.C.