Feeling depressed again

Why I am always sad? I feel so alone. I cried yesterday, no appetite to eat. I just drink the whole ensure plus just now. Went to drive a little bit. But why I am so so sad.. And feeling hopeless. The daughter of my husband can't understand what I feel. My sister is 3hrs away from me and she don't understand as well. We faught yesterday just because I ask somebody to help me to take my car in service. I can't drive alone and I'm still scared. I am so frustrated what I feel everyday. It's like I am not content with my self. Sometimes I am okay but most of the time I am not. I never went to seek help. I guess I will fight this battle alone. I will keep continue exercise I guess. I am planning to go back to Phil for good. I have my family here but they are busy in their own life too. I am a burden to them. Pls help me

Hi roxy, I wanted to go for check up but no one will go with me. I am dependent to everybody. That's why my sister keep telling me to try to be independent that I will put in my head that I should not depend to everybody. I am okay last 2wks, I have been exercising feeling awake all day but this wk is not good. It's like I am back to zero again. Maybe because I am always bored. I woke up early, will do my exercise, drink my smoothie, then clean the house, go to the park or went to my friend. I don't have a satisfaction. Watching tv, go to the lake, play with dog. I don't know what else I'm going to do. I have been taking herbal meds and I do have Xanax as needed. That helps me good when I'm in a high anxiety. But for depression I don't have any. I am trying my best to get rid this feeling. Even I am not in a mood I always force my body to do something. Always my negativety wins.. I don't want to be that negative person anymore. Pls do you guys know how to change the thought into a happy thought? My energy drains if I feel depressed even I don't do anything. This is sucks.. I am hoping tomorrow won't be as bad as like this.

Bik,

First of all hugs. ..I wish I had the magic words to just make this all go away. ..

...but like I said in your other post...this is just a natural part of the grieving process...and it won't always be this hard. It will feel less and less heavy given time...so have hope for better days ahead.

Here are therapy worksheets that could help you to process and work through some of the depressive thoughts/feelings. Give them a try and see if they help.

Therapy Work Sheets:
www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm

With support and caring,

S.C.

P.S. I also posted that link for lowering H.R. through meditation...as well as another idea in your other post, so be sure and check that out.