Vent

Hey y'all.

I've been having the worst month of my life so far.

Idk if you remember I've been battling anxiety and dispersonilization/derealization caused by an edible i took about a month ago. I been feeling out of it and dizzy and depressed ever since.

I am not going to blame the edible because I have had so many things I've been dealing with this year.

I am 23 and have been battling a painful skin desease for years but this year in particularly got really bad. So I started seeing a derm. I always suffered from anxiety and depression but not to the level I have experience this past month which did start after my first Panic attack I had with the edible.

Yesterday I was having a better day. But it all went bad and today I am on the verge of a panic attack. My brother and gf who just had a baby about 2 weeks ago went out for drinks with her family as i babysat and well things didn't go right and now they aree separated and highly unlikely they'll get back together. They had been on thin ice for awhile. She came this morning and took all her stuff and the bby. Which is really sad and well I've been a mess. They where living with us and I will miss my lil nephew.

Besides all that, I also pull myself back from my other family like cousin's and the other day my aunt saw I wasn't doing so well si i think she told them and they have called me constantly the past couple of days. The don't know about my current struggles since I've been very closed about them besides the my family that I live with. Idk how to talk to them especially that my anxiety is so high this past month. Sorry for the rant

I'm sorry there are all these additional stresses going on right now joav. None of that helps the anxiety, of course. So do your best to insulate yourself from any drama or stressors as you can, and focus on yourself. Be extra kind to yourself, have some extra Halloween candy tomorrow, or do whatever you can to make yourself smile. It can be helpful to find someone in person to talk to as well - are there any local support groups for anxiety/depression? And of course, you can always come here to vent!

I think you're on the right path, friend. Just hang in there and keep taking those baby steps.

im trying but its so hard. i felt like so sad yesterday and today i am feeling the same way. its not the same sad feeling as before but like actual depression type.

my cousin keeps calling me and i keep ignoring there calls. i just dont want to open up to them. they been noticing i was sick for so long and they never tried talking to me about it and now that someone tells them i am bad off they want to talk. i know i hold grudges but it something i need to work on.

i am currently at work and cannot concentrate i am not happy in this job and since all this thing happen it just feels stronger feeling.

i am feeling dizzy as well which does not help concentrating