Hello and welcome!
I am sorry to hear of your anxiety challenges and worries concerning health and mortality. However, know that you are not alone with these fears...and you have found a great community of support!
If you are currently not insured...there are some options for self help that you can get started on until you can see your doctor/seek therapy.
At the top of the main forum page here you'll find our Resources. There are many ideas to get started on right away...including general Stress Relieving Exercises, as well as help for health anxiety...which should really help you. Practicing the suggested exercises daily will make a big difference in how you feel.
Keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand, care and support is key!
Talk soon,
Scaredy Cat