Posted 3/19/2017 5:53 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone
I haven't posted for a while as I've been trying to keep my head busy.
In case nobody remembers me, I joined the forum following a diagnosis of GAD and health anxiety. I'd been suffering chest pains for some time. The doctors flipped between costochondritis, fibro, anxiety, vitamin d deficiency wanted to test for h pylori but all settled on the fact I have health anxiety.
My gp started me on lyrica and propranalol to help with the pain and panic but I think all the lyrica did was make me worse. I managed to stop that around a month ago.
I went to see a different gp about 6 weeks ago who immediately tested my vitamin d to see if that was the culprit for my symptoms. Lo and behold I was really deficient. However, last week I went to see my gp again to ask for more PPI (lansoprasole) and she ordered a gastroscopy. Days layer the appointment arrived and my procedure is in 6 hours.
I'm so scared. I'm dry retching, I have diarrhoea, I've woken up at 4am on the dot every night for a week having a panic attack. I don't want to go. I'm so tempted to cancel.
I can handle the thought of the procedure but I'm terrified to know what's going on. I don't know if I'd rather not know.....
I can't even handle this anxiety. I've convinced myself they're going to find cancer and because they've made me wait over a year for these tests that they won't be able to do anything to help me...