Post surgery anxiety flare

Hi all, I was a regular here some years ago, been dealing with the panic without help for a year after a short stint with Buspar but I had surgery a month ago and I seem to have fallen back into the trap. I still have a lot of pain which triggers some of it and I had a bad time coming off the pain meds (which I didn't stay on for long due to nausea and lightheaded Ness). My BP was all over the place, wound up taking an ambulance to the ER. They never found out root cause but blamed the anxiety and meds, but ever since then I have had horrible attacks at various times throughout the day and night. It's to the point where I am nervous​to be alone. I feel very loopy and just not myself. I had a breakdown tonight with my husband, I had the surgery to correct chronic pain issues and while it's helped some of that, between the surgical pain and the anxiety being so rough I feel like I made a mistake getting the surgery. Has anyone dealt with a flare after surgery? I can't seem to talk myself out of every pain being something that's going to do me in. 😥

Sorry to everyone who is dealing with this... So frustrating that it never really goes away.

Thanks Scaredy Cat!

All I've done so far is some meditations with Stop, think, breathe app on my phone and a visualization exercise before bed to try to calm down...my anxiety is always worse at bedtime. Just having trouble getting g out of my head when I get dizzy and loopy feeling. Recovery is hard, then add in a rambunctious 5 yr old in the mix and I feel like every day is a marathon.