How much damage can Klonopin do in three months?

Hey there, I'm new to the forums. Hope you're all doing well and I hope you guys can help me out. I'll try to make this as brief as I can.

Last fall, I was in the prime of my life. I had everything and everyone I ever wanted and I was the man I always wanted to be. That all changed when I had some sort of unspecified episode. I had to go on medical withdrawal from my dream college and have been back home for months. It's been hell. In December, I had to go to the hospital again for a different type of reason. I was put on 1,500 mg of Depakote, 1 mg Klonopin, and 25 mg Anafranil. Currently, I'm on just 250 mg of Depakote, mainly because I felt like I was emotionally blunted. However, I'm afraid that the Klonopin I was on has irreversibly damaged my brain. I've seen and read about the horrifying effects long-term usage can do to a person. I was on Klonopin for three months - starting at 1 mg towards the end of December/beginning of January and on 0 mg at the end of three months. I'm worried that the strong emotions that I once had, the strong personality and creativity, intellect, etc. is all dead, killed by Klonopin. I still have memory and concentration, but I worry it's not as much as I once had.

Please, can anybody help me out? Tell me what kind of damage this Klonopin could have done during that time?

Sorry, if I come off as dramatic. But your help would mean the world. Thank you for listening. Peaces!

Scaredy Cat said...
Hi C.D. and welcome!

I am sorry to hear of your current challenges. I am sure this is scary and frustrating to you.

The amount of benzo that you were on for the short period of time would not have caused you any long term ill effects.

I rather suspect that the unspecified episode, along with the subsequent health issue (seizure?) has triggered some anxiety in you...causing your symotims and worries.

Anxiety can have profound effects on us...both mental and physical!

What if anything have you done for treatment? If you've not explored therapy and/or self help...I urge you to do so.

We have great material in our Resources at the top of the main forum page here that you can get started on right away...

...and you can talk to your doctor about a therapy referral.

There is help and hope for feeling your best again! Keep positive, and work for a recovery.

Post with us anytimead well if you find it helpful. We care, understand ...and support is key!

Scaredy Cat

That is great to here! I was so relieved to hear that! I actually have a great amount of resources, including a psychiatrist, therapist, and I've done some neuropsych testing about a month ago that I got results for. Nevertheless, I really do feel as if the medications that I was on has done something to me. I feel pathologically different. Before, I used to be eccentric, hilarious, creative, brave, intellectual, strategic, analytical (sounding so humble, I know, lol). But now... I feel less of these things. I don't just mean in the sense of "quantity", but it's like I'm missing half or more than half of the character traits that made me who I am. And as for the rest, it all feels the same. I don't "feel" intellectual. I don't "feel" creative. It's like I've been emotionally blunted, even though my behaviors show emotions.

I dunno. Starting end of December/beginning of January, I was on 1,500 mg of Depakote, 1 mg of Klonopin, and 25 mg of Anafranil. Now, with my trusty psychiatrist's help, I'm just on 250 mg of Depakote. And a supplement regime, which I've been on for about a year now.

Also, no seizure . Just obsessive intrusive thoughts.

hi CD

I also miss my old self, my performance has also gone down.
Hope you feel better soon,