HORRIBLE MORNING

Ok everyone, this morning is absolutely the worst I've had in a LONG time. I woke up feeling that jelly feeling in my arms and legs which is pretty much go to for me after a period of stress. My boyfriend and I had to get up early as he's on jury duty this week and going to work early for a couple hours before going to the court house.
On top of the jelly feeling, was just feeling a little off in the head. Like not quite depersonalization but close. I pushed through and we had a good morning. Then driving to work, it got stronger. Then I got to work and full blown anxiety attack hits just as everybody is getting in. Can't think straight, chills off and on, tingling, totally feel like jelly and very lightheaded. I texted my son as he has anxiety too and we talked each other through these episodes. My neck and back feel so tense and they're tingling. I kept doing the breathing and it slightly subsided. Now it's coming in waves. This is the worst in a long time.
I know I'm not dying but sure feel like I will. I took half of my lorazepam about 15 minutes ago and hoping it kicks in soon. Just needed to post and some reassurance.

I have been through ALOT of stress in the last few months and now things have calmed down and I couldn't be happier. So why this now???????

MSP,

I am sorry to hear that you are having a rough morning! I hope your rescue med has started to kick in by now. Great work on your coping skills...keep it up!

I have the same delayed reaction to stress. I even have a name for it...'The Fallout' I can be a rock and handle it all...for so long, then the anxiety can get me...out of nowhere. Weird, huh?

Keep working your coping skills several times each day, and use your benzo when really needed...but hopefully this was the last of it, and you'll be feeling better soon!

With encouragement,

S.C.

I have noticed during the course of my life that when I go through stressful periods I somehow get through them but after it's over and done and things settle down, that's when the anxiety kicks in. It's just a reaction to the stress you went through previously. I have a horrible time every morning myself. My therapist said that it could be Excess cortisol in the brain But whatever it is I almost hate going to sleep at night just knowing how I will feel every morning. It usually subsides a bit by late morning but not always. So I know exactly what you're going through and I can assure you you won't have a heart attack or stroke or whatever you're worried about it's just all part of this horrible anxiety disease. Good luck to you. We all need each other support going through these things

AK, you pretty much took the words out of my mouth. The last few months were rough but everything worked out. We successfully closed on the perfect house in the perfect location and couldn’t be happier. We’ve been working in the yard and getting settled in. Then a few days later, I felt it coming and it did with a vengeance. Still is. My tongue tingles a lot, arms and legs felt like jelly, chest tight and sore, random lightheadedness, sweating, chills. Yesterday I had to give up my oldest cat for adoption because of her behavior. That was really hard. Ativan barely took the edge off. I had horrible dreams and woke up in full blown attack. Barely slept. Home from work today. This has to stop. I’m babysitting my grandson in 2 days and H A T E feeling like this.