Horrible anxiety tonight....

This has been one of the worst days yet for my anxiety/panic. I have been tryin to just lay in bed and not move, but still my stomach is doing flip flops, feels like my heart is skipping and every time i stand up I am dizzy and nauseus and my heart starts racing like i just ran a marathon. It really feels like something is physical wrong with me. I am on here instead of going to the ER. I just need to fight it out but its so hard when its going on all day long. I have hardly slept for 2 days. I slept in all about maybe 6 hours in 2 days. I am wondering if that may have anything to do with why i feel so bad. Does anyone else get effected by lack of sleep? Also I found my ex highschool sweetheart online. We dated when we were teenagers for 3 years. Even lived together for 2 of those years and had a pretty difficult break up. That was 9 years ago and we've been talking for the past 2 days. Im gettin married next month to an amazing guy who i have been with for 5 years and have 4 gorgeous children with. But yet I keep thinking about my ex and its making me feel guilty and horrible and its making me feel literally sick to my stomach. My ex is married too so its not like we are gonna run off together. But talking about old times and him saying how beautiful I still am and how i was his first love blah blah blah is making me feel like I am doing something wrong. I think all this is making me feel physically ill. But Its like i cant turn my mind off. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Seems to give a tiny bit of relief!

Hunniebee-

I've been where you're at. I had an ex fiance who I had a really bad break up with. He found out I was getting married and he immediately wanted to talk and come clear from Texas to see me. I told him no, but continued to talk to him on the phone and through e-mail. I ended up getting married anyway. My deception continued. It caused me anxiety because I knew it was wrong to talk to him, but at the same time, I was actually still in love with him. (long story)

This is probably the cause of your anxiety and yes, I've had my sleep dirupted by it. I'm going through a week or so of not being able to sleep. It's awful. You need to do what your heart tells you to. I wish I had never married my first husband. I'm now married to a very wonderful man and haven't talked to the ex in Texas for around 3 years and I don't miss him.

I totally agree with janet stop talking to old flame he is only trying to butter you up IMO and YES lack of sleep plays heavy on A/P
I hope you get some decent sleep soon hun sounds like you need it real bad
be well and take care
Lyn

I think your ex realized you have moved on and hew is only trying to wreck your life but thats just my opinion

You do as you feel is right for you

we will still be here for you no matter what decision you make

*hugs to Hunniebee* I understand what you're going through.

I was dating a terrific guy recently and then my old flame came back into my life so I left the great guy behind, which I shouln't have done. I took him for granted.

How things ended again ended as they did before and as janetlee said when you have that great food again that you've been aching for, it's never as good as it was the first time unfortunately.

And it wasn't great and it wasn't a good idea and I hurt the guy I had been with.

Just try to not talk to him as it will conjur up nothing but old feelings and want to sway you from your Fiance.

Twiggygal~