Sorry guys if the subject of my post threw anyone. I am just really upset today and need to vent and need a big hug!
I just recently moved and have been trying to find a job. All of this has caused ALOT of PA's and severe anxiety. Well a week and a half ago I did get a job (as some of you already know). I am now working as an office assistant at a private Psyche practice w/ 6 docs. Well I have been doing well (or so I thought) as I am EXTREMELY busy all day long, not a moment to take a breath. And I have received an inkling of training, probably an hour if even that. I have basically trained myself. Well today my boss (or one of two, the other is her husband who is very sweet) jumped all over me for forgetting to check my voicemail after I got back from lunch. I had forgotten as I was trying to check insurance benefits just as she had told me too. She did this in front of 2 of the other docs and I was SOOOOO embarrassed. I almost cried, I turned beet red and my lip was trembling. All I wanted to do was run away. The other docs didn't say anything but I could tell they felt sorry for me. I bet they would have even more if they knew I have A/P. lol Luckily when she did this it was quitting time. I HAD planned on staying late and finishing up with ALL of the doctors pt evaluations just to help them but I didn't. I just picked up my purse and clocked out. I feel so worthless and stupid and I don't even want to go back there. On my way home I cried and my chest has been killing me all evening. I am jittery and shakey. I finally had to take a pill, something I haven't had to do. I am trying to stay positive and know deep down in my heart that she will see that she shouldn't have treated me that way. I don't even want an apology, I just want to be appreciated for what I do for them. I bust my behind trying to keep everything organized and easy for all the docs there. And I LOVE their patients and treat them like gold as I know what they are going through. I love my job but I can't handle a boss who attacks me in front of other doctors and demeans me unreasonably. Sorry this post is so long guys. Just feeling very bad tonight. Thank you all for listening. Love you all, God bless... Idie/panicinID