You all know my saga, so I wanted to update you a bit on what's been going on with me.
After the hellish experience at my former job, I started doing freelance, where I continued to do it for about 8 months, when I officially landed a new position outside my former industry. I start on Monday.
I think I might have had the onset of a panic attack last night, but managed to breathe through it without taking a klonopin, (mostly because I didn't want to disturb my kitty who was sleeping with me!) Unfortunately, as I was freelancing I lost my insurance last month so I'm running low on meds until my new insurance kicks in next month.
I'm pretty nervous about starting fresh. Although, I do with I had this sense of freedom by starting all over again. There is some anxiety of what my boss will be like, whether I'll lose myself in trying to please others again, about whether I'll take on too much just to impress others.
That's not to say I'm not happy about the new job. But once again the nerves outweigh the excitement. This is one of the thought processes that I'm working with my therapist to change. But even still. Just looking for some support and a few success stories. Anything to replace the weird thoughts in my head with good stuff.