I don't think my meds are working anymore...

 

I've been on my Lexapro for three months and all the anxiety and panic is coming back when I don't take an Ativan/Lorazepam. 

I am starting to get sick again.  My stomach hasn't been feeling right, and I stare at my body and am disgusted by how thin I am.  (I thought weight gain would be a side effect :( but I can't put on ANY weight and I don't think I am)  I saw a picture of myself from a year ago and I was so much healthier looking, you couldn't see the bones on my chest like you can now.

How do I tell my doc? What do I do?

Help me.

The panic is coming back again and I don't want it to because I thought I was doing good and now I'm not, and I've been having insane thoughts again like I did before I was on meds.

I can't tell you what the thoughts are as they aren't allowed to be spoken of due to HW forum rules, but I heard that suicidal thoughts can be a side effect of my Lexapro?

I thought my depression was going to be helped by the Lexapro but it's NOT helping and I'm more depressed than ever.  I feel like my life is just pointless and I don't go anywhere or do ANYTHING. 

What should I do?

I seriously thought I was getting better but again, now I just sit on the computer or read a book a night because my mind is reeling again and I can't focus and I'm just going crazy I think.

 

I HATE having panic disorder.  I HATE IT because whenever I feel like I'm getting better I go RIGHT BACK to square ONE!!!!  I hate feeling paralyzed by this, like I'm going to be stuck in a state of terror forever.

Twiggygal

oh twiggy, im so sorry to hear that your going through this. believe it or not, im going through the exact same thing. i have been on lexapro since june, and over the past few weeks i have been feeling like its not working anymore. it helps me alot with my panic attacks, but im still so depressed and i never want to go out or do anything, and it has gotten worse. i hope we can both find an answer and become happy people.

god bless, leaves

Well twiggy..you cannot have a setback if you haven't progressed in the first place! I believe that's all it is..just a little setback...
Has something happened to knock you confidence in the past few days?
You will never be back to square one coz you have already been there and done that eh?
OK, here's the plan...how about going to the doc and telling all...maybe you are on the incorrect meds or dosage..who knows, and you won't either unless you go talk to him..
You have taken the first step and told us that things are not right and you feel yick...well done..now it's time to tell a proffessional so they can advise you on what to do next so you can start feeling better and start having some quality in your life!
We all hate panic disorder...just have to find ways of dealing with it in the best way we can :) I wish I could wave a magic wand and everything could be sorted out for you..but you are the one who has the wand and I know you can do it!

Take good care
Maree

Well done twiggy...you have taken positive action..tomorrow is another day..and 'fingers crossed' all will be well with you again..

Take good care.
Maree

Twiggy-

I am so sorry you are feeling this way!! But I know exactly how you feel- I was just feeling like I had my feet on the ground again when everything hit again and I, too, feel like I am back to square one, with sleeping and eating problems. But I guess we have to be thankful that we did have some time that we were feeling better and have faith that we will get back to that point again.  Yes, managing this disease is tough- but sounds like you are taking control and taking the steps you need to!!

Hang in there!!

Twiggy-

I was on Lexapro for a couple of years and it quit working about 2 months ago. I was on 40mg, which is the highest dosage you can be on. I'm now taking 120mg of Cymbalta and seem to be doing better, for the most part. I'd call you doc and see what he/she has to say about the Lexapro and then go from there.

Good Luck 

Twiggy-

Been there. Doctors don't think that they need to respond to their patients calls. I have one like that too. If I don't get a response after 3 times I go to his office and demand some answers, but that's just me. Sorry and hang in there.