So, yesterday at the new job was an eeyore day. I couldn't seem to do anything right. Nothing horrific happened, it just seemed to be a day where I was completely unhelpful. In any event. Since then and especially this morning I'm seeing signs that I'm a ****-up. And the thing is that there not really official signs. EXAMPLE: My boss tells me that after an out-of-office meeting I can head home. My initial thought is that she doesn't want me in the office to screw up anything. Then I try to tone that thought down by saying "no, no... She knows I was here until 6:30 last night, she's just giving me a break."
I know I have issues trusting people and this is a HUGE reason why I have these awful thoughts (about myself and others) but it's really driving me bonkers. I'm honestly more upset about the fact that I think this way then by the actual thoughts themselves.
HELP.