I may be layed off again-stressing out

I have been at my job for almost 4 years and may be laid off.  This is quite stressful for me and I am trying to not panic at work.  I live alone paycheck to paycheck and will be hurt badly if I am the one to go.  My boss said he is trying to let the other guy go since I am a better worker with more knowledge, the other guy has been here 10 years and has seniority so it could be either of us.  My boss says he is not making the final decision.

I have been laid off three times before.  The last one was for 14 months and the ensuing major depression almost killed me, literally.  It will most likely happen between now and the end of the month.  I have crohn's disease and IBS and my guts are gurgling already.  I took a half a xanax to ease my nerves a little, that was news I was not expecting.  I can't afford COBRA and would have to go without insurance and medication.

I am a mechanical drafter/designer and jobs are few and far between these days.  I'm not really asking for advice, I just needed to get this off my chest.  Any good thoughts would be welcome though.

I know exactly what you are feeling. It's a worry with my husbands job to, it's pretty much a day by day thing. I hope everything works out for you! Many HUGS!!!!!

Update: I am not able to tell anyone at work about this or try to plead my case as to why I should be kept. Yesterday on the way home I got very angry with my boss for telling me. It took me a couple of hours to get over the anger. I have not seen or talked to my boss since he told me two days ago so I do not have a clue as to what is going on. As far as I know my name is still on the list to be laid off. So today I made copies of my drawings for future job interviews. I am trying to prepare myself and not freak out or dwell on it too much, as I have a tendancy to do. Hopefully it will happen Friday or Monday, I can't take the not knowing. I'll let y'all know what happens.

Hello bluemeanies

Just something to lift your spirets senority dosn't mean a thing these days. I had 5 years of senority over 2 coworkers when the company decided to downsize and I was one of 150 let go. So try to keep a positive outlook on this hun. Your in my prayers.