Hospital stay, clonazepam withdrawal hell.

I'm just out on day leave so probably won't get to respond to this message straight away.

I'm still in the private psych hospital and have been going through hell.

I saw an intern on admission and rather then talk to my pdoc he decided to cold turkey me off the clonazepam (which is the only drug that works on my anxiety) without any backup plan. I went into hospital sick and have since got way sicker. I couldn't feel my hands or feet on Saturday as the anxiety was so bad. My pdoc has since started me back at 75% of what I was on 2mg per night now 1mg at night and .5mg in the mornings. He said there was no reason for me to withdraw just yet off the med. I'm so angry, scared, frustrated, anxious well you get the picture.

I've just now got to wait for the med to get back into my system and I know when I'm well and it's time to withdraw to do it very slowly and in very small amounts. The people I've met have been fantastic and the unit (depression and anxiety) everyone treats each other like family and supports you (better then half the staff but that's another story).

I hope everyone on here is hanging in there, I feel like I've taken some giant steps backwards but am now taking tiny steps forward again.

Well I'll speak to you all when I next get a chance. AA.

  Ha Aussieangal I just what you to know that we are here for you and we feel your pain and I truly hope that things to get better for you as you are in are prays

  Cowboy up

I just spent last night at home on overnight leave. I didn't leave the hospital until dinner time and only after taking a valium as I was so anxious.

It well until just now when the 15yr old started having a major tantrum about school.

Anyway I just want to thank everyone for their kind words, it's wonderful to know people care.

I see my pdoc today when I go back to hospital and will discuss the med situation with him then. I'm still feeling anxious most the time which isn't good. Maybe I need the 2mg again? I use to just take it as my night med and didn't even think about it now after what they've done I find I'm waiting for it in the morning as my anxiety is there. I feel like a junkie.

Anyway I'm hoping to be home next week, I've just started classes at the hospital (they had me in the wrong group) that is teaching me coping techniques so I also want to get some more of those in.

Everyone take care and I'll speak to you all soon.

Hi Aussie.  I am on the same medication you are on.  I have no idea why a doctor would cut you off cold turkey like that.  Even though I feel nothing when I take my dose 3 times a day, I have tried myself to stop.  Not good at all.

Hang in there and tonight when I am just laying here, I will say a nice prayer for you.  You will get better.