I start my new job tomorrow and right now I'm getting so worked up over it to the point that I'm on the brink of a panic attack. I'm finding it really difficult to breathe, my heart is beating wildy, I feel sick to the pit of my stomach and I feel tearful. I'm worrying about
absolutely everything: being able to wake up early in the morning...the bus being on time...having decent work mates...being able to cope with the work...it's all so irrational because people cope with this every single day, so why is it that I always have to get so irrationally anxious over things that are so trivial?!
Sigh. :( I think I'll have a nice hot bath in a minute to try to calm down.