Hi Pilehead
I understand your fears, I fought medications for a long time, and the only outcome of that was that when I finally did start taking them, I was in a much worse place than if I'd started taking them earlier.
I now look at it as, well..... if I was in a bad car smash and had to have physio to be able to walk again, then meds are like a car smash of the brain and I can take them under supervision and as soon as I am well enough, I can start to reduce them, just as you would reduce the amount of physio on your leg as it got better.
No point worrying about side effects and withdrawals until you get there, everyone is different. Discuss your concerns with your doc and get as much information about how the med may effect you, then you can be prepared and deal with it, IF it happens.
Best wishes.
Deb