I think I may have found one of the best jobs that really help me with my anxiety.
When we had that big ice jam come down the river it took out a lot of docks with it, so now I been repairing docks (both the metal and the old wood docks) I started out repairing one and did some customizing on it a blended in both docks together with a ramp from one the the other and a platform from the stairway to both the docks and leveling them all out.
But the best part is I told the owners of how I am and that when I need to take brakes I most do so and so far all is good with it and I get to just sit back and watch the river, Eagles and the fish Rollin, it is so peaceful, that and I still get to build something with my hands. Plus I got a 500 dollar bonus just from the one guy that I started working on his dock and getting more job referrals from him and I don't have someone looking over my back all the time and I even got a few extra snow plowing jobs from them to boot.
But on the bad side of things I haven't put much time in with the horses that I need to do.
Cowboy up