i haven't been actively seeking treatment for almost a year. even while i was seeing doctors, i was letting my prescriptions pile up. i'm at the bottom of a pretty insane bout of depression; last...
lately i've been hearing what sounds like my phone receiving a text message, i'll swear to god i heard it, but it never happened. this happens quite frequently now. and i've been taking my depakote...
it's really something she needs to get a grip on herself. until she realizes that she has a serious chronic mental illness, she won't change. most of us were probably the same way for a very long...
sometimes it's like i have zero control. sometimes, when something sets me off badly enough, i would seriously injure myself or someone else before i can calm down. luckily i've only ever injured...
doesn't sound like anything out of the ordinary to me, haha. i'm like that 75% of the time, and i've been sticking to my meds pretty well. *sigh* just part of the package, i presume. hormones and...
HAHA i get it. good one. welcome =)...
hello =) um i'm okay i guess, could be a lot better. don't have an appetite but need to eat something. kind of irritable with my mom and i feel bad. =( my hip is hurting too. obviously in a negative...
i can't shop with my card, i have to take cash when i'm shopping. and i only bring a certain amount and that's it, that's all i have to spend. that's how i restrict myself. i spend money like it...
yeah, apparently doctors recommend zinc and selenium to combat hair loss. but i take 1000 mg a day. that's a lot....
no i haven't, good idea...
i'm never online with anyone else. sadface =(...
welcome to healing well =) yes, definitely get back on some meds. it's a whole lot harder to get out of a funk without them, trust me. i've never had kids, but i could totally understand the stress...
a family member told my mom that her neurologist told her to take zinc to prevent hairloss as a side effect from depakote. anyone else heard this? i'm going to try it. my aunt said her hair grew back...
thanks for the support ladies. =) a massage? that sounds amazing. i was thinking more along the lines of getting my eyebrows waxed or something, haha. and probably a haircut and some new shoes. and i...
ugh i probably won't be on much today, i had a bad night so i'm trying to get out of the house so i don't think about it so much. my ex has obviously moved on (he's talking to another girl.. she...
closure you are such a sweetheart! i think the world of you. i think you deserve so much. gosh....
well he used to dink extremely heavily. after his stay in the hospital that slowed down, though. he does get depressed. but he's so quiet and he never really talks about how he feels it's hard to...
most of the time i'm pretty apathetic about the way things look, including myself. but actually sometimes i just wanna clean clean clean everything i see. rare and doesn't last very long, but it...
aww yeah i'm thinking & talking about you guys a lot. =)...
also spoke to my ex about his ADHD diagnosis. i know that until recently most doctors didn't believe that bp existed in children, however they're finding the old theory to be untrue. his sister is...
but my mood is okay =) just wanted to check in. i miss you guys, wish it was more convenient for me to get online. hopefully by the middle of next week my computer will be fixed. it feels good to be...
aww that was sweet. i'm doing well, my laptop is on the fritz so i'm online a lot less lately. cyst is causing more pain though.. i had to leave work early because of it. also called in yesterday...
found out today my aunt is being treated for bipolar, but she doesn't think she has it. she says she's just really depressed. but from what she described it sounded like bp to me....
sorry to hear you're not feeling better moodwise =( i'm depressed again as well. but i could probably control that if i wanted to. your problems are completely out of your hands and that's got to be...
m2e, i'm quite interested in books relating to bipolar =)...
oh goodness, no need to be sorry cap. i don't really know what to say. my brain is fried. i called him this morning and i've been crying all day. i've got to stop begging for sympathy if i'm going to...
Haha thank you ladies. I just had a very theraputic poetry writing session and I'm feelin good about myself. Moving on is going to be such fun... Understandable about bitterness towards men. Most of...
i didn't laugh =) good luck welcome...
well you do a very nice job. i should be thanking YOU, my dear =)...
seriously i think you're the most positive and understanding person in this forum...
i'm manic as crap and i can't keep my mouth shut. sorry if i'm being b****y in my replies to some of your posts. i'm sure you understand, my nerves just get irked so easily right now. i REALLY need...
serafena, i'd LOVE to see that HA. =)...
ps. just fyi the pot smoking is a form of self medication. his moods are extreme, but the pot makes him calmer and more even. he probably would be edgier without it. many of us struggle with self...
yeah you probably shouldn't have said that on a bipolar forum.. our illness is very serious and it's extremely difficult for some of us. you are in a hard situation to cope with but i wish you the...
that sounds neat. there's a cool breathing exercise where you sit (hero or cross-legged, whichever), plug one nostril, inhale deeply through the other, then plug the opposite nostril and exhale...
maybe consider your sanity a little more. yes, he's bipolar, but if he's not willing to help himself, i don't think you're obligated to do much more for him. it's his responsibility. i'm a youngin so...
i talk to my dogs so much now that my ex isn't with me all the time... i'm turning into that lonely old woman who lives alone with like 1000 dogs and who's never been married....
haha thanks. you shouldn't feel old, you're just wiser. i kind of can't wait to get there myself but i know i need to enjoy these years while i can. and you're right. i'm just slow-moving when it...
you know, i seem to know all of this stuff in the back of my head, but i just don't want to admit it. *sigh* don't worry, i don't take offense. like i've said before, i listen to my elders, even if...
sorry if that was mean, i just meant that it takes a very willing and very understanding person to take on the challenge of welcoming a bipolar person into his or her life... if you don't have it...
wow. i read the first three sentences of this post, and that's all i needed. you obviously can't handle him....
hello! =) trust me, you'll find lots of understanding people here. joining the boards here has probably been one of the best things i could have done for my mental health; god knows i'm a wreck. it's...
cap, serafena, m73, everybody the seemingly harsh words are coming from a place of love, i know. =) i don't take them personally. i take them logically. well i try to....
trust me, it's a difficult situation. all your words are empowering though haha. and he is definitely taking advantage of the company i'm willing to give him... this was his reasoning for yelling at...
okay so i was depressed for a while, now my mood's getting better by the minute and yesterday i could NOT shut up or stop moving. i'm a shoe salesperson so that actually might bring in some...
yeah this is crazy. i don't feel so bad now. =) hat, my slobby streak has never diminished at all......
he called me on his way home and i ended up staying the night with him. =( feel kinda guilty but he bought me breakfast =) he also let me talk to him for a while and get some things out, which felt...
i've gone 6 days without showering. i usually skip two days between showers, on a regular basis. it's summer though so i shower every other day now. =)...
i can definitely relate to the hygeine issue. but i'm kind of a hippie so i mean......