Havent been on for a awhile i just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New year i hope you find answers and solutions to your problems...((((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))))...
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Darkies Gem)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))...
I feel like I am going insane….I am trying but it all seems pointless. this morning when I woke up it felt as if the whole world was resting on ,it was the first feeling as I [b] opened my eyes...
Thank you all for the support (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) Shy i have looked at bankcruptcy not an option i need some assets they can sell if i want to declare, its the dumest thing i have...
Been trying to put to words some of the thoughts that run wild in the confines of my mind like you asked. Its just a rant of everyday things small and irrelevant just thoughts I keep to myself cause...
cant deal with the smallest most insignificant things in life.... i am tired i dont have the energy to explain my total and complete incompetence in living this life.......there is no pill for...
sometimes this life just rips out your heart and kicks you while you down gasping for air, for reason to stand to fight to keep going ……I need reason so desperately…… in the blink of an eye the rug...
(((((((((((((((((((Kitt)))))))))))))))))))))))...
Thank you (((((((((((((((((((all)))))))))))))))))))))...
I apprecaite the help and advise and if that option was available i would have taken it i have looked at the options but nothing in my area. in my country things work abit differant health insurance...
Thank you (((((Karen))))))))))...
thank you for the replies...havent been this dark in a while not sure why ...just feel so alone hopeless and lost, breathing is effort.... I dont want to complain i hear what everyone is saying its...
journaling but it makes me more depressed....got a 2 hour part time job 3 times a week.. no counceling no money it wont help anyway..... there is no way out of this gone as far as it can........
Right now its real hard face down in the mud.......... does that make these ,empty words or a need to believe a desperate grapple at hope .............
Its the same old stuff just need to say it......somedays i seem to be in a free fall heading for the bottom at a rate of knots and i cant stop .......I don't know where its all heading and why .. i...
I know I just take and never give back but thank you everyone for stil caring I just needed to hear it.........
Need to know someone cares......... in realitly no one should i am just a stranger a four letter word on the net so logicaly this is stupid....... its dark in my world and i need something to hold on...
Thank you everyone for your support(((((((((hugs))))))))))) I have made a mess of my life and complaining about it is not gona make it right. I have a flaw in my caracter and no matter what i do it...
like an avalanch i am falling and detroying nothing good will come...........
its always negative when i post so i dont really want to post anything its also pathetic and really insignificant but its the only outlet i have and if i keep it inside it eats at me... Its whole...
I am not sure if i am alowed to post this my apologies if I am breaking rules plz just remove it. Its a poem written by someone I lost.. Though I chose death instead of pointless pain, Please forgive...
thank you all for the support and advise ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))...
Thank you everyone for all the support and advise (((((((((((hugs))))))))))...
i feel alone ...dont know what to say.... i have said it all before...i am trying i really am ....whats wrong with me ????? why cant i just get on with life, live and be happy ......i know one step...
Once more I have no hope no reason I cant explain it. It has always been there sometimes its in my face sometimes silent in the back of my mind but its always there. I took a walk to the ocean this...
Thank you Kitt Sheryl and Karen I much appreciate you continued support (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))));-) When days are dark and clouds gather its good to know someone cares it helps me to not...
Thank you to everyone for there support and advise i do appreaciat it very much........ For now i am just going trough it all i am angry and sad i am at a loss for words so much change... there is...
((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))...
((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))...
Thank you all for the words off encouragement.I am still feeling very low with all sorts of emotions boiling in a pot. No i haven’t been able to find some type of therapy the reasons are many and i...
/community/emoticons/sad.gif i dont have words just so much emotion right now and not sure what to do with it all.........
I sent you a mail Shy guess you dident get it. i am not alowed to talk about it here on the forum so i just have to deal with it best i can... Take care...
not dong so good dont know how to deal with all the emotions i am feeling right now .........
I just need to share i am sorry if i am breaking any rules i dont ... 1t started about 11 months ago an ordinary day i was caught in a dark hole of depression and in a desperate grab to life i posted...
There is no point its the same thing over and over its all been said i dont listen i dont learn i just go trought the same loops up and down up and down.... I tought religion might give me reason to...
thank you (((((((((hugs Shy + Kitt)))))))))))...
I cant get out of this hole today. why do i let this happen :-(...
I hear what you saying and i know i have to patient its been wacked so long its gona take time and i need to stay positive its just hard i try not to think ahead but sometimes i do before i realize...
I want that to just hard somedays like you know.Thank you...
hugs thank you...
Its been a long time since i posted so dont think anybody remebers me it doesent matter anyway .... I tried real hard to get my life together and it was going much better but in the end there is just...
Hi Everyone Thank you for the support and words of encouragement they help when times are dark.Today i have some hope again and i can see that i have growen alot i know there is still lots more of...
Hi everyone you are all correct i guess i know these things.Just wish i could switch off my brain and that little voice that keeps telling me i am selfish i am worthless the toughts that make me feel...
Alcohol makes my ex crazy... Last night i met her for her birthday she recently moved down to where i stay got a job the whole thing and she has been trying to get me back under the friendship front...
Hi all just to let you know I am still alive and kicking I know most of you don’t know me but that’s ok. I hope that my story might give someone hope because I know how dark it gets when all hope...
Shy - No i cant still no money and i dont think it will help Kitt- Ty i have been doing it one day one hour one min at a time I just feel abit ovewhelemed with all the debt and it being Chritsmas and...
inspite of everything all the new oppertunities and things to be thankfull for i just keep sinking i can never get away from who i am it makes me mad and feel ashame but not enough to change i am...
Hi guys i posted in my i want to run and hide tread my apologies for not getting back faster been a bit difficult to get to a computer it makes my heart warm and my soul smile to know someone cares...
Hi Gillcom hello and thank you for the kind words Shy Your continued support encouragement and joy has been pricesless thank you (((((((((((hugs)))))))))) These words of encouragment and support from...
Hi Ev1 Thank you so much for all the replies and encouragement i appreaciate it very much. Just to bring you up to speed its nou a week since i left and arived at my new home it was a very long drive...