One year ago, I was detained at an AMH unit (Acute Mental Health), for 2+ wks, married to a woman who both loves and hurts me, father of 2 children, and still in love with another woman that once...
Thank you, Karen, Jaimee and Sandi. I wish you all well....
I have no idea how HopeNope became part of my thread title. I didn't type Nope! Oh, well, it's cute 'cause it rhymes....
Hi. For Karen and all others who followed my major depressive episode last March, here's an update: XMas 2008 - panic attacks, horrible depression, began escitalopram. March 2009 - hospitalised for 3...
Thanks, Karen & jamiee. How's that job, Karen? Hope that Raniah and Akram are well....
Hello, again. It's been two months since my last post. I keep myself busy with teaching, parenting and being a husband. To review: past suicide attempt 20 yrs ago; marriage troubles starting 10 yrs;...
Hello, all. Your check ins are well appreciated. Yes, I'm still busy with house & family: trimmed most of my 12 spruce trees (and had the allergic reations go on for days); landscaped my front &...
Hello, Raniah, Karen & Akram. I hope all is well with you. Raniah, I wish you a speedy recovery, but am sure that you are still feeling the effects of your illness. I've been keeping myself focussed...
Hi, Raniah. I'm OK. Thanks for checking in. I just have gone into my avoidance phase again. After that mtg with my old friend, and some run ins with my wife, I just didn't recover quickly, and some...
Take care, Raniah. I'm thinking of you....
Hi, everyone. I hope that you feel a little better, Raniah. It took me 6 wks to recover from that disease, even to walk up stairs without needing to lay down. Karen, I wish you good luck with your...
Hi, Karen. Well, you didn't have to confront that worker, which probably reduced your anxiety at work a bit. How else is it affecting you, for you to consider quitting? Thanks for the well wishes. I...
Thanks, Raniah. I'm sorry to hear about your illness. I wonder how the docs know that it is viral vice bacterial. I had it 2 yrs ago in Jun & Jul (another end of school year illness), and saw a lung...
Hi, Raniah. Hope work went well. I wonder how Karen's Friday went. My Sat was anxiously eventful. I found out Fri night (wife read obituaries) that a woman I knew had died last Mon. She was the...
Happy Fourth of July to our US friends!...
You're welcome. Good luck....
I wish you luck with whatever you choose to do, Karen. Even if you don't get the exact outcome that you are looking for, it really only matters if you feel that you have maintained your self respect....
Don't work too hard. Cool joke. It also helps me to repeat that which I have done on these posts....
Hello, Karen & Raniah. I can respond to both your posts with a quick description of my DBT Grad group today. Interpersonal Relationships was the focus, 1 of the 4 major parts of DBT. We were...
You are an excellent writer. Your thoughts are always well organised, and clearly laid out. You are also very convincing. I understand your points, and appreciate them. I agree that any serious...
Raniah, I don't know how to respond to your traumatic experience, because no words would do it justice. I am impressed with your strength in the face of such an awful experience. You were the victim,...
That's unfortunate that you are not well, Raniah. I hope that you are well soon. I guess that participating in many things helps the days go by. Am I good? I still don't feel it. The quiet moments...
Hello, readers, and Hi, Raniah. My Tue was busy: final moving and cleaning classrooms; and then helping my sister-in-law's son move. I'm still helping move, and now clean (scrub, disenfect... dirty...
Tnx. Night....
Yes, DBT has helped me restore my balance somewhat, in an organised, structured manner. This focussed training is important for impulsive BPDs (& those with features of) I suppose. The Grad group is...
No word on the patches, yet. As for the GP, I'm assuming that I'll get a call in Aug or Sep, and they will tell me when to come in. I'm seeing my DBT Grad group, with the doc & clinician, this Thu...
Sounds like you were both mindful and in the moment, by observing and sensing nature (outside of oneself). A popular choice for me. I find observing and describing inside oneself more challenging. We...
Yes, we all seem to be in the writing mood at the same time. You're wise when you speak of enjoying what you have at the moment, even temporary family or friendships. I struggle with that, probably...
Hope you find peace amongst the rocks, Karen. Wishing you well....
Enjoying your quiet time, Raniah? I played UN Peacekeeper (we Canucks are good at that) with my daughters. My youngest (8 yrs) has that Emotional Disregulation, too. Heart of an Angel, mouth of a...
Glad that you are well and getting through the day. Anniversaries of important events involving my wife and 'her' are the tidal waves of emotions. I'm not at the 'it'll be over soon' stage of...
(I was writing my last post just as you posted, so it did not reflect a response to yours of today.) I'm sorry that you feel unwell. Is your state a result, or a reflection, of your family time...
Hi, Raniah. I tried to respond yesterday, but fell asleep before sending it off, so I lost it when the phone went to sleep. Hope your family function went well. No rain till the eve, so the picnic...
Yup, rain since 9:30 am. Waiting for word from Grandma (my mother-in-law) if the picnic is a go. Thanks for the email offer, and the positive wishes....
Thanks, Raniah. My second post just talked about self harm, without action details. But I talked about how it made me feel, which is, I guess, still description and as such it violated the limits of...
We had that storm on Thu, and it ended our BBQ picnic early at the park behind our school, and cut our school's power for a while. What a way to end the last day for kids! I'm glad it did no damage...
I guess this is where I deviate from the average depressed person. I've grown accustomed to self loathing. Liking myself seems so foreign. I may not be available for a while. My wife's family picnic...
You posts, your thoughts, are always inspiring, Raniah. I felt as if I was just whining during my post, but that is because I'm still not used to sharing my feelings. It does feel like a no-win...
Yes, everyone came home, so I logged off. I'm working off my phone now, in bed. You're correct with what you stated about my loneliness and lack of wanting intimacy from my wife. And she's mad at me...
Raniah, your mention that need for intimacy, and identified my single pain: the perceived lack of love and affection (romantic) from a woman. I mean, someone who digs me, smiles when I walk in a...
Hi, Raniah & Karen. Thanks for posting. I'm resting after an eventful last day, skipping the staff party, so I'll respond more in depth later....
Thanks, Akram. Actually, I was in-hospital mid Mar until early Apr, so 3.5 months ago. The 6 month time frame refers to my first admitting to my problems to my GP, getting the Dysthymia diagnosis,...
Good to know, Raniah. It's interesting that I believe in what I do day to day, yet hate myself since I feel rejected by others. Quite a juxtaposition, believing in oneself yet disliking oneself....
Living by the water! Nice! I can visualise that nice feeling. Thanks for your encouragement. I can always count on it....
Hi, Raniah. I'm glad that I could help. I've often better at assisting others, rather than myself. Hope that the headache has subsided, and the alarm problem is corrected. Like you, thoughts of...
Thanks, Jamie....
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Thanks, Raniah. I feel the hope when I speak with HealingWell persons like you. One moment at a time. I'm glad for your positive acceptance. And I accept your extra strength and peace. Sleep well,...
Raniah, I hope that you can let the sadness slide away, like the clouds that slowly floated by during that sunset. To acknowledge the feeling, then become unstuck from it. Radical acceptance, which...
Cool & breezy sounds good, Raniah. Hope the soup was good. We had a ton of rain, great for my grass, but today is the 1st of Summer, and we in Ontario felt it. Sun and humidity, which will continue...