Thanks all. I will be going to the police about a guy who sexually abused me. Long story, but he confessed to me through text, i told my parents and brother in law who is a police officer and he said...
Thanks guys. Have just come home from psychiatric ward in hospital. Support means so much. Im al little bit better. But not good. -Jess...
I too feel like, "WHATS THE POINT CUZ THIS WILL NEVER GET BETTER" Still hold loads of doubt. :(...
Hi RockinLife, I feel you. I honestly do. Im right there with you :(...
Hi all, My last post on here was all chirpy and positive. Since then, i have been admitted to hospital and on a IV drip for 36 hours, and then i almost was admitted to the psychiatric unit but my...
Thanks Jamiee. I hope you are well. Jess :)...
Thanks very much _insert unique name_...
Thank you Karen <3...
Hey everyone! I have had a think about life and about everything and i am ready to make nan proud and persue my dreams as becoming a family lawyer and defending children in a court room. I know there...
Thanks all for the support here. Karen, i think i will flick you an email. I just dont know if i can cope much longer with hearing all these things about my mates. Its heartbreaking, sitting and...
Hi all, I have not posted for a long time. But am struggling alot. I have been over the past year. I have been hospitalized three times, and have been self harming alot. I am alone and need some...
I dont know what to say to be honest. I am not yet on meds BUT there is a possibility that i will be put on them if the therapy, which is starting on thursday doesn't help. Im dying inside. I really...
i have sleep stuff that you spray in ur mouth. Doesn't work. Im still not feeling ANY better! I swear im getting worse!!!! F*@#!!!...
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
Things aren't and haven't got better. Starting meds for ADHD today. Feel no better. Just numb. Normally netball helps me to be happier and being around my mates, but no. Not this time. @!#$%&*@#*%!$...
Hi All, Well... im back AGAIN! Not for a good reason either. Im over it all. I just feel pain. Nothing else. Just pain. I swear im not alive. Well, im here but im not. I am falling. Down and down and...
No, thats not what i wanted to hear. But yes, i now understand. So thank you. Not doing any better today. At all. I think im going to go into iscolation mode. See yah all. Bye....
Oh how bloody fantastic! I just lost a good mate of mine. She hates me now. Because i told her the truth! Stuff it, whats one more loss? :(...
I am starting to loose ALL hope in everything. Just wanna be able to smile and laugh from the heart. :(...
Aaaaaaaarrrrrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Back to square 1 :'(...
Thank you all. I have had a very very busy day today with 4 little darlings of mine!!!!! Have just come home for a shower then bck out to the cozzie club (Friday night tradition) for dinner with them...
From the moment i found out Shonagh (his mother) was pregnant, i have been counting down the days. I have been looking foward to his arrival for soooooo long and i just really really want to see him....
Morning, Yes, it took alot for my to even tell her i wasn't sleeping and that i have been crying alot when i am home by myself. I woke up a few times last night. Very annoying!!!!! Apart from that, i...
Oh mscrowbar, please dont be sorry. You have dont NOTHING wrong but everything right. I feel so bad knowing you care so much. In fact, i have never really realized until in the last couple of days,...
Im going to call my brother and see if im allowed to come and visit my nephew. He is adooooorable and i am soooo eager to see him. If i am allowed, i will go on Saturday. Here is a photo of him....
Bayoub2, you have done nothing wrong here. Please dont think you have. You are just trying to help. I understand and i thank you for that. I was a b****h to you and other people on here that are...
When i see my psychologist, i put on a brave, im ok, happy face for her too. She is falling for it too, as i have done it from the time i met her. She wants me to get some sexual abuse expert...
Im different. What may not be normal for others is normal for me sometimes. In this instance, this is the case. I am happy and LOVING life...... I mean hey, whats not to LOVE?!?!?!...
OH MY FREAKEN HECK!!!!!!! WHY DOES NO ONE BLIMIN BELIEVE ME?!?!?!?!?!...
Thank you, but why are you sorry?...
No, i dont need help anymore Karen. Im all better now. Im happy and free!!!...
Ok, i haven't told anyone this. But in this case, he wasn't going too let me "growing up" affect what he did to me. There was more coming. I saw it. One of the many reason i moved out of that house....
It's true. Im almost back to normal noow. I will never be totally normal, but this is the best i will get and i love it. I love life!...
Thank you. Im all better now. No more yuk feelings. All happy. Dont need to worry about me now guys....
OK! I get it now. I get that i was young and all that. Its just that my whole life, i have been blamed for everything and i have grown up believing that everything is my fault. I HATE putting all...
I am not a victim. I am horrible. I am a liar. I have screwed so many peoples lives. I have broken so many hearts. I am a loser. I am ugly. I am pathetic. I am stupid. I am weak. I am a b*@#h. I am...
I dont want a new life....
Alaskah: I dont want to go to any support group. I am not a victim. I dont deserve to be treated like one. I have done many wrongs. More wrongs than rights. I have done soooo much shit in the 14...
I had to urgently get off the laptop so i didnt get to finish my reply. Jim1969: I am not telling a lie. I am facing the truth. And its getting harder day by day especially still having contact with...
AWTY: Im not really trying to push people away, just trying to get you guys to realize who i REALLY am and what a BAD person i am. That is alot of money and i am sorry you have to carry your issues...
Im a failure. I have failed so many people. You cannot see it and i wish you could. I am seeing my psycologist next Monday. I dont want to and i dont talk to her much. She is going to get me into...
Jim 1969: If i choose to think that this is not my fault, then i would be a liar. I am a liar also because for so long, i have blamed my mother for everything, when its actually all my fault. Yes, i...
It is. I am horrible. I am a liar....
Im so sorry for what he did to you. I really am. I cannot accpet a lie. Im sorry. There is no point me writing anymore. Im just pushing everyone away. I will never believe a lie. I have been bought...
Im hanging iff the edge of the cliff and all thats keeping me from falling is string. I COULD have STOPPED all this SHIT that im feeling IF I HAD TOLD SOMEONE EARLIER. Looking back at it now, its ALL...
Yeah, i know whats coming, and i know where im heading. You wont want to hear it though. And yeah, my feelings have changed, not for the better though. But i dont even know why im posting. No one...
Karen: I got next to no bloody sleep last night! I kept having dreams aabout my nephew being hurt and my aunty, brother and nana fighting (physically). You know when someone tells you something...
Hi everyone, It has been a long time since i have been on here. I am currently on school holidays and have been since the 7th of December. I am back on the 2nd of Feb. Now, ALOT has happened in a...
Thanks guys (: I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon with my psycologist so will write then... love to you all (: Love Jess...
Karen, Thanks heaps. I just had a little cry to myself. I cry myself to sleep every night really. I know things will get better eventually because its been beaten into me. People dont stop telling me...