I feel like a loser being depressed again. I was doing so well before. I am not as far down as I have been in the past, at least I don't want to die and I am not crying all the time. The thing is, I...
Thank you Karen and Jamie. I appreciate all the support you have given me these last few months. It is amazing how far I have come. While waiting at the car shop today I read a few weeks of my...
That single word has ruled my life. I should do this, or I should do that. Rather than, what do I want to do or what do I need to do? Taking care of my illness requires me to throw the shoulds in my...
Doing much better, thanks Karen. I put on the B52s and rocked out while cooking a veggie stir fry. You can never remain depressed for long while listening to the B52s. Had a pretty good day. Just...
Feeling a bit loogy today. Not really sad or happy, blah I guess. I feel like sleeping all day, but I won't. I am going to go and cook myself some good food and then go to work. Yeah, tomorrow is...
I am ok. Had a good day, but now I am feeling overwhelmed, about nothing. I guess I am just tired. Sleep is as good a cure as anything. See you in the morning....
Thank you Trina. I have done the opposite of you-I have had sex with way too many men and loved only 2 of them. At this point I realize I cannot have casual sex any longer. It was what set off my...
Good morning all. Got up early so I can go to see an art exhibit. If I get there before noon it is free so I got up early. I know I will pay for lack of sleep later but it will be worth it. The...
JBI-I know you are right. Sometimes it is hard to let go. I suppose there is a line between trusting too much and not enough and I never know where that is. Like everything else in my life I am...
A bit tired today, but then it is Friday after all. The weather outside is gray, of course that is the norm for New Hampshire in Winter. Spring fever is in the air-I heard some crows cawing today,...
Doing pretty good today. Thanks to the storm we had last night I got off of work 4 hours early. Enjoyed myself by watching a documentary. Feeling a bit tired today, but I am sure I will get a long...
Qinming, I feel the same. I have no real friends right now. Part of it is that I am a loner and I do often prefer my own company, however betrayal by friends and lovers in my past has made me wary of...
I get night sweats from my antidepressant-Celexa. When I went off it a few years ago the night sweats stopped and now that I am back on it they are back. I also find that I am warm when others are...
My depression seems to come in two forms-Manageable and unmanageable. When I am on medication it is generally manageable, meaning I have a choice whether to lose myself in it or not. That is where I...
I feel for you Trina. Doctors can be so rude. I used to work for them, they treat their staff just as bad. I once had a neurologist belittle me because I was there for having headaches for 20 years....
Great idea Karen. I do like playing Zombie Island. I will try that and see if it works....
I think avoidance is the defining factor of our lives in our society. We numb ourselves with TV, shopping, the internet, food, sex, drugs. I guess in the past people were so busy trying to stay...
Trying to make some changes in my life, changes which I have been trying to do for years. I am putting it out here so that way I have to take responsibility. I know it sounds trite, but I am trying...
I also never answer my door or phone. I figure if its anyone important they will leave a message. The idea of talking to someone I don't want to freaks me out. Which is funny, as I am able talk to...
Thank you all. I do take vitamin D. The doctor has done blood work and has found that my levels are low. I went and dug out my car, at least it warm enough to melt the snow. Even though I feel like...
Feel like crying tonight, but even that is too much of an effort. All I want to do is sleep. I know a lot of it has to do with living in New England during winter, and that once the sun comes back...
I find that my depression is worse on the weekends. I think it is because I have no structure, no demands which allows me to wallow in my sadness. At work I have people and tasks to accomplish, and...
Feeling better today. Had a terrible headache yesterday but it has passed. Its Friday which is the best work day of the week. It is supposed to storm here this weekend. Guess I will just have to stay...
Display, I find that sometimes I just have to keep the body moving, keep doing what I am supposed to do and when its over I can finally have my melt down. For me it is important to have that melt...
Interesting. I have been putting eucalyptus oil in my bath to help my sinuses. I will add peppermint to the mix too and see if it helps....
I have also had these issues for years. I was diagnosed with TMJ 20 years ago, but was unable to wear the teeth guard while sleeping as it gagged me. My pain is mostly on my left side. I goes from...
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Has anyone taken Malic Acid/Magnesium Supplements and if so, what were the results? I have been taking vitamin D as my blood tests showed it was low which may be why I have been depressed. I suppose...
I understand as well. I had a neurologist once who acted as if I were wasting his time. As if 20 years of chronic headaches was actually a hang nail. Doctors are trained in school to believe they are...
Thanks Karen. I do feel better. Was so busy at work I forgot to think about myself, which always helps. I went to the gym after work and feel great now. I guess knowing that those moments of anxiety...
My anxiety yesterday turned into depression again. I didn't cry thank goodness, instead I did nothing but watch TV all night. Feel a little bit better today. I actually worked on my novel a bit which...
I did my taxes yesterday and found that I had to pay, a lot. Luckily my math skills suck and after talking to my mother I found my error and am still getting a refund. However now I am having anxiety...
Hello Cyndo. Depression is an invisible disease. As we are not on crutches or wearing bandages we appear "normal" to others. Even though I am depressed I am able to screw on a smile, go to work and...
Jamie-sorry to hear about your loss. I will send good thoughts your way. Feeling a bit out of it today, but that is ok as it is snowing out and I have no where I have to be. Still a bit achy from...
I have had chronic headaches and muscle pain for over 20 years. I suppose I am lucky that I do not require heavy pain meds to deal. For the most part I am able to ignore it, but some days I just get...
Good day all. Feeling a bit loogy today, but I suspect once I get up and going I will wake up. Looking forward to this 3 day weekend. I hope you all have a great day....
Unless I was having anxiety I also sleep all day when I am depressed. And if I am not sleeping I am lying on the floor in front of the heater not doing anything. I never sit still, so for me that is...
I do no have OCD, but I know what its like to obsess and worry. For me, I have to write things down to see exactly how unimportant whatever I am worrying over is. Relaxing has been a constant...
Too cute. My cats have taken to hunting their tails. They get so frustrated as wherever they go, their tails seem to follow. Its cute as hell watching them spin round and round. And my kitties are 15...
Cute thoughts, however even though dogs may love you more than you love yourself, I will stick with cats. I find that they mirror me pretty good. They are moody and unpredictable. They are aloof and...
I use rice and flax seeds. I tried beans but they smelled really bad when you nuked them. I use eucalyptus oil and lavender flowers. I get them at the local health food store. I buy cloth napkins at...
Its funny, the pillows you are talking about, I make them and sell them. I keep forgetting to make one for myself. I will do so this weekend. I fill mine with lavender and eucalyptus. Thanks again...
What I am dealing with is tolerable. It is not harsh pain, rather just nagging ache most of the time. I guess I am used to it by now. Most of the time I don't even really notice it. Its like wearing...
Thank you Karen. If it is fibro-what sort of doctor treats it? Is there a specialist I should see to confirm?...
I have been tested for fibromyalgia, lupus, Lyme disease, arthritis, had cat scans of my sinuses and brain. I have tried chiropractic, acupuncture and massage. You name it I have done it. The only...
The cycle of chronic pain and depression is baffling. I try to make logical sense out of it, but I cannot. I have had the worst headache today. I have a headache every day, but today was worse than...
It's freezing rain and snow out today. Not bad enough to call off of work though. Feeling pretty good. I have been having some totally psychedelic dreams lately, makes me feel a bit hung over in the...
I find that writing helps clear my head. I found a site called writeforten.com What you do is write whatever comes to mind. You have a limit of ten minutes to do it in. I try and ignore all typos and...
Today I feel great! The sun is shining and I actually went out and enjoyed it. The temps are above freezing for once so I went out in the woods and snow shoed. What a work out. My legs are sore, my...
I also understand. After a really positive week I am struggling again this weekend. I just keep moving forward keeping my head above water. When I feel down again I feel such disappointment, as if my...